Clarissa :D

2010-06-11T14:49:00.000+08:00

http://fried-marsbars.tumblr.com/ (:

2010-06-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

I can't take it anymore.

2010-06-06T14:51:00.001+08:00

2010-06-05T19:54:00.006+08:00

2010-06-05T16:35:00.001+08:00

2010-06-05T13:41:00.000+08:00

2010-06-04T23:24:00.000+08:00

I swear I'll never fall in love again.

我会恨你一辈子。

2010-06-02T12:09:00.003+08:00

2010-06-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

Someone tell me what am I supposed to do.
I feel so lost.

2010-06-01T21:34:00.000+08:00

Some people are easy to get over, they only take a week or two.
But sooner or later, you’ll find the one, the one who has changed so much of your life,
and no matter how hard you try, you just can’t find the words to say goodbye.

2010-06-01T20:41:00.003+08:00

I never thought i would love someone this much.

2010-05-31T23:54:00.003+08:00

Just got back from 5 hours of studiowu.

I just realized something.
I happened to be reading two people's blogs on the way home.
And i realized, forever isn't impossible.
It's just me who is impossible.
I always spoil everything.
And its always my fault.
I'm not saying people always blame me for doing the wrong things.
But I literally always do the wrong things.
When i talk, i always say something wrong.
When i do stuff, for some reason i get an unexpected reaction from the other party.
I know no one is perfect, but I'm not even normal.
How can someone make so many mistakes and hurt so many people.

And my dad taught me a life lesson.
In life, no one will ever stay with you till the end.
They will leave you somehow sooner or later.
I chose not to believe that.
But now realizing this fact that i have just mentioned about myself, its so true.
For me at least.
No one will ever stay with me. Even my friends.
Because basically no one would want to.

Sorry doesn't mean anything to me anymore.
If you didn't mean all those things you said to me then why did you say it in the first place..
I guess I deserve all this.
Just a flash of the picture and I can totally lose my concentration.
I fell on my head in gymnastics, and tendon snapped today.
I know it's over. But why do i still keep hoping. ):

2010-05-30T16:22:00.001+08:00

I don't need or want anyone to cheer me up.
Just fucking leave me alone.

2010-05-29T20:32:00.004+08:00

Smashed into a million pieces.
I can't even hold myself together anymore.
I want to run away from this world.

2010-05-28T22:05:00.004+08:00

I really don't know what to do anymore.
I feel so crushed.

2010-05-27T17:07:00.001+08:00

I've got nothing left.

2010-05-23T00:01:00.002+08:00

Alright, I wanna post about yesterday and today before i forget what happened.
And I'm gonna make this quick because I am going to fall asleep anytime. LOL.

So, I shall start with yesterday. Friday.
Went to school as usual, had some speech about our finance minister?
Then had healthy lifestyle, dance.
Went to PE, played captain's ball and monkey, 5 vs 5. Boy vs Girl.
But for some reason in the end it became 5 Girls vs 7 Boys. ._.
Overall PE was awesome.
Had maths, got over maths.
Had recess, Yijun's birthday, bought photos.
And i forgot what happened in POA.
Went for lunch, then went for CIP giving out flyers.
127, 128 with Weiheng and Jason.
All the way to Marsling. Was half dead by the time we just reached there.
Finished up, stuffed the extras into letterboxes, lifts, dustbin, rocks, notice boards.
Charged back to school, earlier then i expected.
Modern dance.
Normal as usual, I skipped ballet. Dammit.
Then left early, shall skip the unhappy part, reached Studio Wu late.
There goes my popping class.
So waited for hip hop instead.
It was awesome, super tiring. LOL.
Compared to this modern dance is nothing. :/
Went back home, ate, slept I think.
K I'm done.

Now Saturday, which is today.
I keep thinking its a Friday today.
Because i went to school in my class tee.
Went usual time, was actually late.
R3 day, was boring.
121, had 4 levels, 2 doors on each level, finished in about 5 minutes.
Did 125 for the other group, finished real fast too.
This building is designed by someone who definitely not use his/her brain.
The structure is seriously stupid and inconvenient.
Finished, kept going into 7/11 because i didn't know what else to do.
The truck took so freaking long to come.
After that, ran to cwp, because boyfriend was waiting for me. :)
Waited there for Kimberly and Anna, but in the end ate first.
LONG JOHN SILVERR. :D
I had an awesome lunch. Not that the chicken is nice.
But because I ate it with Andrei. :D
So that made my day.
Then after he left went to find Anna and Kimberly at Yoshinoya.
Watched them eat, talked about what to do.
We had 3 hours, and it really was a lot.
Movies were out, because we had no money and the timings were all wrong anyway.
Anna wanted to play basketball, and none of us had balls. Literally.
I suggested going to Tampanies, but then no one agreed.
Wanted to take a random bus number, but no money for a cab back.
Nobody wanted to go back to school.
And causeway was seriously boring.
Anna went to cut her hair, Kim looked at her bangles.
In the end went to starbucks at civic.
Kimberly bought her mocha, went to sit on level four.
We looked like we were loitering, and apparently we were.
But there was really nothing for us to do.
Took some funny pictures there, shall upload another time on fb.
Anna has many faces.
We were all so tired and unhappy.
But for some reason thing changed.
Walked back to school for Modern dance, gate was closed.
Saw Jiaqi, Kelicia, Bharat and JiaHong outside.
Not because of those people, but i don't know why.
I started shouting and screaming rubbish, until tears came out of my eyes.
So many things happened and I can't even remember anymore.
Kinda weird.
I scared Jeslyn I think. :/
I hope no one ever sees me like that again.
And apparently Anna and Kimberly weren't any better.
But it's my first time, and it really wasn't normal.
Oh well, I'm glad I'm back to normal now.
Walked into school after Miss Soo came, went to Mr Raja's office.
Did make up and changed, practiced once.
Set off in a mini bus at 6, reach chinatown there at around 7.
Seriously scary place. Full of perverts.
Felt so uncomfortable. D:
And the best thing was the way everything was arranged,
it looked like someone was gonna perform a traditional Chinese opera.
Concert started at 8, we were third in line.
Performance wasn't that good, was too far back.
My mother ans sister came just when our performance ended.
Perfect timing.
Was told the car broke down. Hooray.
School fetched us back, changed, washed face, went home.
Eat, now posting.

I'm not doing it right.
No one has to tell me, I already know.
I need people to tell me things straight in the face.
And the only people who are doing that are my parents.
I want to do it right, and I want to do more.
But i don't even know who should I go to, to ask for help.
I want to give so much more. :(
I'm losing it, and I want to do something about it.
I really don't know how.
I keep doing the opposite.
Fuck the world. For not letting things turn out the way I want to.
It never does.
Even if it takes me my life to do this right, then so be it. :)
It's so worth it.
BUT for some reason deep down inside I know it won't happen.
I can wish, but wishes don't come true.
I will still try all the way till it ends.
I want to make this the best part of my life.

I have so many problems and crisis to deal with.
I wanna write it all down.

Okay I should sleep now.
If you were in heaven, the situations going on in Earth looks like a board game.

2010-05-18T20:30:00.002+08:00

Emotionally Mindfucked.

I'm freezing like hell, and my fingers are all ice.
But i figured if i post, i will get warmer. :D
Everything's so messed up now. ):
All i did was ask one question, and i realised i have to start planning out my june holiday.
Exams are over,
time for me to start studying.
I'm gonna have to work so hard.
But if my plan really works out,
then i guess its all worth it.

Who knew you actually had to earn your freedom.
I thought it was a right.

Oh well, i have no rights.
I couldn't log in to e-learning, so i guess I'm not doing it.
Which means I am going to get a lot of shoutings on Thursday?
But who cares, I'm not in the mood.

I have so many freaking things to plan out,
I feel like hiring people to help me do it.
But it involves saving money,
which means i have no money to hire people. -.-
I have so many things I need to finish..
Thanks to some monster in my house who destroyed it all.

This feeling being bored on the computer reminds me of primary school.
But then i used to play maple,
which was what Anna suggested me to do just now.
except i cant be bothered to re-download it.
But I don't think I should start.
I rather go Studio Wu.
Which I would, starting tomorrow.
Then I would finally be occupied.
Very occupied! :D
I wanna buy my sneakers. ):
Two types too.
That's gonna cost me a bomb.
I got so many things to save for. D:
Oh well, i shall rank according to importance.

I wanna watch Shrek 3D with Kimberly and Anna. LOL.

Okay, this is not helping my coldness. :/
I shall go back under the blanket now.
Bye bye bowling for tomorrow.
E-learning part two.
The chemistry video was seriously retarded.

2010-05-16T20:09:00.005+08:00

One week since i posted.
Last paper tomorrow.
I hope i do okay.
And yeah, i can't wait to get my results back.
It's like waiting for the floor open for me to drop to hell.
But i don't have the mood to study.
Because its the last paper.
And i'm officially broke. For now.
Until my money comes tomorrow.
Shall not use it at all. :D

POA Equation -> Y = MX + C
wah i laugh man.
everybody still stuck at maths.
If i pass poa... i shall buy peiyi a whole bunch of chocolates or something. LOL.
i'm gonna fail a-maths so bad.
and i'm not surprised if its a one digit number.
which reminds me now that exam is over im gonna chiong in to studiowu.
im not even taking poa seriously since its the last paper. :/
im already in the exam over mood.

The last song is nice.
and sad.
it makes me wish i have that.. position. *In the air*
I shall see boyfriend tomorrow! :D
Finally~
I want to do so many things during the June holidays.
i feel like writing them all down
which reminds me i have piano tomorrow
my god,
why time fly so fast one. ):
i didn't even practice once.

Isn't the world great. -.-

Alright, I got this from yanxuan's blog. LOL.
Im suuuper bored.

ABC About you questions :

A - Available : Uh no.
B - Birthday : 5th April.
C - Crushing On : Nobody.
D - Drink You Last Had : Water.
E - Easiest Person To Talk To : My Boyfriend. (:
F - Favourite Song : Eenie Meenie , When I Look At You.
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms : Gummy bears.
H - Hometown : ._.
I - In Love With : AndreiSiew. :D
J - Juggle : Fail.
K - Killed Someone : Something.
L - Longest Car Ride : 6 hours.
M - Milkshake Flavour : Chocolate.
N - Number Of Siblings : 1.
O - One Wish : Forever.
P - Person You Called Last : My dad.
R - Reason To Smile : Last paper tomorrow.
S - Song You Last Heard : If I Had You - Adam Lambert.
T - Time You Woke Up : 7am.
U - Underwear Colour / Pattern : Red.
V - Vegetable(s): Don't know.
W - Worst Habit : :/
X - X-rays You've Had : 1.
Y - Yoyos Are : Fun. :D
Z - Zodiac Sign : Pig.

RANDOM QUESTIONS ABOUT YOU

Spell your name without vowels : clrss
What color do you wear most ? : white.
What are you listening to ? : the fan sound.
Are you happy with your life right now ? : Satisfied.
What is your favorite class in school ? : English! my free period. :D
When do you start back at school/college ? : tomorrow?
Favorite pair of shoes ? : ahhh converse. :D
Where do you wish you were right now ? : LOL. :x

THE DO'S :
Do you believe there is life on other planets ? : idk .
Do you believe in miracles ? : yeah
Do you believe in magic ? : magic tricks are AWESOME
Love at first sight ? : dont know
Do you believe in Satan ? : ya
Do you believe in Santa ? : LOL YES.
Do you know how to swim ? : yes.
Do you like roller coasters ? : hell yeah
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows ? : nope

THE HAVES :
Have you ever been on a plane ? : yes
Have you ever asked someone out ? : yes
Have you ever been asked out by someone ? : yes
Have you ever been to the ocean ? : not yet
Have you ever painted your nails ? : yeah

THE WHATS :
What is the temperature outside ? : 28 ?
What radio station do you listen to ? : 987fm and 913fm.
What was the last restaurant you ate at ? : some jap restaurant.
What was the last thing you bought ? : water.
What was the last thing on TV you watched ? : drake and josh!

THE WHOS :
Who was the last person you IM'd ? : ._.
Who was the last person you took a picture of ? um a person
Who was the last person you said I love you to ? Andrei.
Who do you feel like seeing now ? : hmm.

HAPPY SECTION .
Are you a happy person ? : normal i guess
What can make you happy ? : my friends and my boyfriend.
Do you wish you were happier ? : yes
Can music make you happy ? No.
How many times have you had your heart broken ? thousands.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them ? yup
What is your current hair color ? black .
Current piercings ? 2.
Have any tattoos ? Never.
Eye color ? black.
Favorite eye color : greyy
Short or long hair : long
Height : 155 D:
Best clothing : tanks.
Have you ever been to jail : nope.
Mooned someone : what. ._.
Thrown up in a store : I dont think so
Laughed so hard you cried : Haha yeah .
Cried in school : yes
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today : Nope
Gone skinny dipping : not yet ;P

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke : Coke.
McDonald's or Burger King : Long John Silver! :D
Single or Group Dates : Single dates.
Chocolate or Vanilla : chocolate.
Strawberries or Blueberries : blueberries.
Meat or Veggies : uh meat. :D
TV or Movie : movie
Guitar or Drums : guitar
Adidas or Nike : Nike
Chinese or Mexican : chinese
Cheerios or Corn Flakes : corn flakes
Cake or Pie : cookies
MTV or VH1 : mtv :D

#1 . Are you a chinese or english freako ?
- I dont know. :/

#2. If time is going to stop ; what will do for dhat time ?
- uh, sleep.

#3. Prefer a playpool or playground ?
- pool.

#4. Do you usually gossiped others ; or being gossip ?
- hardly.

#5. Do you like simple or complicated stuffs ?
- simple.

#6. Do you tackle numbers or alphabets better ?
- im bad at both.

#7. What makes you pissed off ?
- this house of people.

#8. How's your childhood ?
- um, awesome ._.

#9. Do you have inspiration w/o perspiration ?
- LOL.

#10. Do you think 24hrs it too long , short or just okayy ?
- too short.

#11. Would you judge people by their appearance ?
- sometimes.

#12. What is attractive in your eyes ?
- colourful stuff

#13. Do you like the day or night ? Explain .
- day.

#14. Do you treasure stuffs that you own , or you have insatiable desire ?
- both

#15. If your computer just hangup , with a long doc not being saved , how would you react ?
- scream ._.

#16. Do you believe in miracles ?
- Maybe

#17. Do you often tend to forget the past , or trying hard to do so ?
- trying

#18. In your life , why colours are out here ?
- BECAUSE THEY ARE.

#19. Have you ever pity those who are really pitiful , and shed tears for them ; etc ?
- yeah

#20. Describe yourself as in attitude ?
- attitude problem.

#21. Do you suddenly lose the grasp of hope to survive as yet ?
- yesyes

#22. Givw 3 advantages where you get to live ?
- what ?

#23. What is your ambition in life ?
- survive

#24. Do you believe in horoscope ?
- no

#25 . Describe music in your life ?
- entertaining

#26. Which country wld you like to go ?
- New york.

#27. What do you think blogging is about ?
- blogs.

#28. What kind of style are trying to get hold of ?
- my own.

#29. When you fail a test ?
- move on.

#30. Pass this to 8 of your friends ?
- dont want.

2010-05-08T21:41:00.003+08:00

TRI-SWIM lifeguard job tomorrow.
waking up at 5am for that.

I wish life was simpler.
But then what fun would that be. :D
I really wonder how some girls stand changing boyfriend like changing underwear.
Its really stupid.
Don't they get tired of it somehow?
And some are even stupid to think the guy really loves them.
It never occurs to them that the guy only wants their body.
Oh well, hopefully those people will grow up one day.
I'm glad i have Andrei. :D
He's the one who helped me get out of the blackhole i was in for 5 months.

Life is moving so slow and yet so fast. :/
Sometimes you just feel like fast forwarding and rewinding.

I was observing my family,
and i realised the games we all play in our iPhones were so different. :/
Father: Physics balancing, Caculus. (-.-)
Mother: Sudoku, Crossword Puzzle. (-.-")
Sister: Escaper, Red brick.
Me: Amateur Surgeon, Traffic rush.
why they must play all the games that need to use brain one.

I wish I have more freedom.
There so many things i want to do and yet have not done.
The best parts of my life are the times i go through with my friends and Andrei.
Im missing the 9 may thing in indoor stadium tomorrow. ):
nevermind! im paid 40 bucks for this. :D
I shall go bathe now
byebye. :D

2010-05-07T22:48:00.006+08:00

Lots of things has been happening this few days, sad and happy.
i think i probably flunked my chinese paper.
honestly i dont care.
I learnt so many things from the past which i had suffered,
and for some reason its not helping me much at all.
im making different mistakes now.
sometimes i should just learn to keep my mouth shut.
But im glad things are okay now.
I just want Andrei to be happy. :)
Then nothing else matters anymore.

I WANT TO GO UNIVERSAL STUDIOS. -.-
so many people are asking me to go to the library tomorrow.
im wondering if i should go or not. ._.
gymnastics is wearing me out.
i got so dizzy yesterday after jumping and flipping in the air more then ten times.
and my wrists are.. getting damaged.
OH WELL. its actually kinda fun.
although seriously tiring and scary.
i actually fell on my face. -.-
thank god its on the mat.

i feel like grabbing a whole bunch of socks and then throw them into the air.
COLOURED SOCKS.
white ones would be no fun.
I think i should sleep soon.
I'm so tired.
if i should sleep at least 7 hours a day,
i owe myself more then sixteen hours of sleep.
Im wondering if i should go church tomorrow,
maybe i will just go library to study or something.
see first lah. :/

Its 12.20am and im blasting fireflies.
thank god there's no school tomorrow.
I just realised i handed in the wrong ss homework.
FUCKFUCKFUCK.
im gonna die on monday. Mrs lee will scream the hell out of me. ):
stupid lah i now then check.
or else i could have rushed to school to give or something.

M&M WORLD.
I SHALL GO DIE BEFORE I DIE.
confirm will go. i dont care.
OKAY.
I SHOULD REALLY SLEEP NOW. 12.30am.
im still staring at the picture of the hot pink lamborghini.
nice man.
my eyes are closing,
yet somehow i feel very unable to sleep.
i feel like eating ice.
what wrong with me. D:
i shall go eat my ice now then go to bed.
goodnight people! :D

2010-05-04T22:14:00.002+08:00

GO PENGUIN! :D
Its 5th May tomorrow~ woohoo.
I did file check until so late today. -.-
AND GUESS WHAT.
IM STILL NOT DONE.
tomorrow is chemistry and chinese file check.
plus maths. since im still not done.
darn it. ):
i hope i finish fast.
I wanna go watch ip man 2 with boyfriend.

I shall try and finish up all my files now. ):
I want to stay back maximum ten minutes tomorrow.
i shall try to get my chem file marked during recess.
die lahhh. ):

Gastric flu.
this is what happens when you try and survive on 1 cup of milk for the entire day.
fuck it. ):
Its nearly unbearable when it comes.

oh well,
shall work on my files now.
byebye.

2010-05-02T22:18:00.000+08:00

Life sucks, then you die.

I can't wait for tomorrow. :)

2010-05-01T17:37:00.003+08:00

Almost one week since i posted.
And this week was.. different.
It wasn't exciting but the usual stuff didn't happen.
Got two file checks next week,
and exams are officially starting.
I really hate maths file check.
And thanks to Zul, 3/9 has officially gotten our first yellow forms of the year as a class.
oh well. ._.
Went for Laselle dance concert yesterday, awesome.
I loveee Hip Hop. LOL.
Its not even June holidays and there are so many classes shooting at me already. D:
My piano is back, i have swimming, i have gymnastics, and the running.
ohmygod. D:
I SAID JUNE HOLIDAYS. >:(
anyway, i shall go back to studiowu in June.
hallelujah. :D
Then, i shall be super busy,
then i wont feel so bored.
5th May is coming!! :D
Going to the library with boyfriend and Peiyi on Monday. :)
Finally someone is gonna let POA make sense to me. :/
I finally ran 2.4km.
Because it wasn't so muddy yesterday.
I cheated the Friday before, walked the Friday before that,
and didn't run the Friday before before that.
I'm not happy with my timing.
NEVERMIND. I PASSED. I DONT HAVE TO FREAKING RUN ANYMORE.

Now i feel so stressed up.
Nothing i do works anymore. -.-
its currently 6.43,
i took so long to post this.
okay nevermind.
good luck to me, byebye.

2010-04-25T19:43:00.004+08:00

SOMEBODY CALL 911! SHAWTY FIRE BURNING ON THE DANCE FLOOR WHOA-OH!
:D

LONG TIME SINCE I POSTED YEAH.
LOL.
national triathlon on the 9th of may. whooo~
free shirt again.
i love free shirts.
my life is going on fine now i guess.
super busy though.
lots and lots of homework and modern dance.
but now no more modern dance thanks to mye.
so study study study study.
i always say but never do.
BUT this time,
im not gonna study again. :D
and then mr chen is gonna come after me.
anyway mrs sng is gonna come after me tomorrow, i am so so dead.
stupid podcast. :(
why did mrs ang have to resign tomorrow.
this year is really flying very fast.
and im really lacking sleep.
looking at the amount of homework i have just makes me want to sleep all the more.
i owe maths so much homework.
its like flying at me more and more before i can even finish the previous one.
and now its stacking up.
miss lim is gonna come after me too.
alot of teachers are gonna come after me soon.
mr tsung is gonna start coming after me for the email which i still up till now have not done.
stupid maths graph.
i wanted to do it now and i just realised i forgot to buy graph paper. -.-

and there something wrong with my left foot.
my god.
everytime i point it, it cramps up, and i just fall right down like i fainted.
one day im gonna get a concussion.
and i really really cannot handle this amount of homework.
its mostly maths.
i really really hate maths.
if it wasnt miss lim maybe i wouldnt have bothered.
but it is. so...
im gonna burst into tears sooner or later then.
i need to slap myself awake.
once june holidays start.
im gonna enrol myself into a whole lot of junk classes.
i really dont care.
im definitely not gonna stay at home and rot in front of the comp.
and theres no way im gonna study either.
so junk classes here i come. ._.

My boyfriend is so busy too. :(
oh well, all the more i should keep myself busy as well.
i feel so guilty,
i feel like im pulling my boyfriend down from all his tchoukball stuff.
ahhh. >:(
im feeling so angry and sad an stressed for i dont know what reason.
i just feel like pulling my hair out now.

i better start on my homework again,
or i would never start.
sometimes i wish i could just sit in one corner of the earth and stay there.

2010-04-18T18:44:00.002+08:00

I want to go back to studiowu.
I want to stop crying every night.
I want to get well soon.
I want to smile like I used to.
I want to have fun like I used to.
I want to score well like i used to.
I want to be hardworking like i used to.
I want to come home from dance classes and have no time to use computer like i used to.
I want to go back to normal.
I want to wake up from this nightmare.

2010-04-16T20:53:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Miss Jenny.
Modern dance was surprisingly awesome today.
except the fact that i didnt bring my jazz pants.
okay other then that, today was so fantastically horrible.
the whole week was.
no such thing as happy endings and wonderful life.
all bullshit.
oh well.
i really hope 2012 happens.
it would be the best day of my life when the world ends.

i dont have any reason to be happy,
i never did.
except now i have Andrei, i have my friends.
nothing more.
talk about friends,
who was the one saying we should stick together forever.
nobody means what they say nowadays.

I love the rain,
it matches my mood.
I'm starting to turn back to my February self,
maybe it doesn't matter.
the earlier i die the better.
its actually a good thing to die.
I'm a christian,
i know I'll go heaven and meet God.
its actually something to look forward to.

stupid poa class tomorrow,
i cant wake up late.
but oh well,
at least i won't be stuck in this house of horror.
i rather go to some haunted house and live that.
that would have been better.

I would name out all the bad stuff that happened,
but it would probably be a waste of time.
who cares anyway.
i love being in a dont care mood.
im going to school to daydream for the seven hours.
my brain cells only lasts till recess.
they disintegrate after that.

one bad thing is coming after one another.
i settle one,
another one comes.
some can't be settled,
you just gotta be patient.
I'm not patient.

oh well.
my mother wants me to be a surgeon because i can take gore scenes.
number one,
I'm not in triple science.
number two, i don't take biology.
number three,
it would be stupid and boring,
to dig into peoples organs for hours.
and if you fail and they die,
its your fault.
then probably half of the surgeons on earth are murderers.
anyway, i don't wanna be a surgeon.
not smart enough,
and definitely not patient enough.
and if im angry,
i would end up making alot of people have internal bleeding.

i wonder why they even got married in the first place.
both of them must have been seriously blind.
i know the male is.
the female must have been deaf.
and yes she is now anyway.
partly.

watching this morning's assembly just made me feel worse all the more.
yog...
i feel like slapping myself.
i wish i got all the suffering instead,
i wish i got all the sadness instead,
i wish i got all the problems instead,
i wish i got all the sickness and injuries instead.
i really don't deserve all this.
anyway, its the fourth time my boyfriend fell asleep talking to me. -.-
imma gonna keep counting. :)

concentrate on the present, and not the past or future.
i shall concentrate on me funeral.
i told anna the details already.
its actually gonna be quite exciting.
i cant wait.
okay i better go do my other stuffs now.
goodbye blogger. i really really hate you.

ANOTHER STUPID DAY. -.-!

2010-04-09T21:40:00.003+08:00

Music: Whataya Want From Me - Adam Lambert

Seriously this can't get any worse.
I just laid out my weekend homework.
By the looks of it,
I don't even feel like starting.
Im so tired, so angry,
and my flu and cough is getting worse. D:

I realise im a really boring person.
My boyfriend already fell asleep while talking to me 3 times. -.-
oh well, nevermind. :/
Modern dance was...
I dont even want to get started.
Im so LOST today.
I couldn't even remember the steps.
And miss jenny and debbie got irritated with me.
I better start practising at home.
And do my homework...
Dare level group tomorrow.
Steamboat is cancelled. D:
Like I said, couldnt get any worse.

Boyfriend has tournament tomorrow,
I shall pray that he will not get injured and WINNN. (:
Horrible, terrible, vegetable day.
Monday confirm worse.
okay i should start on my homework now.
BUT FIRST,

Im the copying machine I think.
Self- declaration.
and the vegetable and the Out of earth.

Nowadays when people insult me, i dont get affected.
which is not right.
i don't know why.

What a STUPID day. -.-

2010-04-08T21:52:00.002+08:00

Music: Never Let Go - Justin Bieber

Today was of course, seriously stupid.
I keep digging under the table and... okay nevermind.
I lost 4.3 and my chemistry textbook.
what the fish man. ):
miss lim is gonna whack me upside down.
which reminds me up till now i still haven't given out chemistry files.
walao. ):
and then i did so many stupid things today.
then chemistry test,
haiqal started reading the spanish verbs aloud,
and got the book confiscated. -.-

Im still sick.
nose blocked, ears blocked.
my throat is starting to get blocked to.
at least i can still breathe through my mouth occasionally.
or i just choke. -.-

ran today,
serene george and hong ze didnt come.
oh well,
ayuni and ashlie are joining us next week.
i guess im not going starhub urban freestyle anymore.
i cant be bothered to go beg some person.
steamboat more important. (:

Today was so horrible.
i didnt even get to talk to my boyfriend for like six hours.
ahh. ):
i guess i should sleep soon.
byebye people. :D

2010-04-05T22:00:00.003+08:00

This is the best birthday i ever had.
THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU to:
Kimberly, Anna, Zhihui, Vivian, Jiayi, Andrei, Kingston, Affendy, Fenghao, Justin. :D
Awesome people.
Love you guys man. (:
Thankyou for recess and after school,
thankyou for the presents.
thankyou everybody who wished me happy birthday.
I couldn't be happier.

THANKYOU FOR ALL THE PRESENTS. <3
Boyfriend gave me four. :D
anna and kimberly, gave me the headphones i always wanted. :D:D
im so happy~
best birthday ever.

2010-04-04T20:26:00.002+08:00

Got this from kim's blog.
She has no life man. Post four times.

1. What are your initials?
cchs.

2. What is your favorite thing to wear?
Um, those shirts from newlook. LOL.

3. Last thing you ate?
Famous Amos cookies.

4. One place you will NEVER eat at?
That Japanese restaurant at Kallang leisure park.

5. I say Shotgun, you say:
Ohmygod.

6. Last person you hugged?
Andrei.

7. Would you ever skydive?
WITH KIM. (:

8. Would you date anyone you met online?
No.

9. Name something you like physically about yourself:
I can't think of anything.

10. The last place you went out to dinner to?
Home.

11. Who is your best friend?
Many best friends.

12. What time of the day is it?
8.34pm

13. Who/What made you angry today?
Deciding where to eat for lunch.

14. Baseball or Football?
Baseball.

15. Ever gone skinny dipping?
Not yet.

16. Favorite type of Food?
Chocolate stuffs. :D

17. Favorite holiday:
December holidays.

18. Do you download music:
All the time.

19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
Yes.

20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos?
Cool.

21. Would you date the person who posted this?
No.

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
Yeah.

23. Do you love anyone?
Yeah.

24. Are colored contact lenses sexy?
Yes.

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
No. But i will one day.

26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
No. I will do this one day too.

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
No.

28. How many pets do you have?
All died.

29. Have you met a real redneck?
No.

30. How is the weather right now?
I don't know.

31. What are you listening to right now?
Baby - Justin Bieber ft. Ludacris

32. What is your current favorite song?
In Your Head - Jason Derulo

33. What was the last movie you watched?
Kungfu panda. -.-

34. Do you wear contacts?
Sort of.

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
ION.

36. What are you afraid of?
Uh any kind of bees.

37. How many piercings have you had?
5. But one closed. _|_

38. What piercings do you want?
Naval. And my helix one.

39. What’s one thing you’ve learned this year?
A-MATHS KILLS MY BRAIN CELLS.

40. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Some chocolate drink correct already.

41. What Magazines are you reading?
Teenage or Teens or Seventeen.

42. Have you ever fired a gun:
Yep.

43. Are you missing someone?
Yeah.

44. Favorite TV show?
Ben 10.

45. Do you have an obession with WoW?
No.

46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
Jiayi said i looked some some model from paris. ._.

47. What celeb do you look like?
None.

48. Who would you like to see right now?
I'm not sure.

49. Favorite movie of all time?
Percy Jackson and the Lightning Theif.

50. Do you find yourself loved?
Hardly.

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t suppose to?
Hardly.

52. Favorite smell?
I don't know.

53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
Butter.

54. Ever put a friend in a cop car on JukePix.com?
No.

55. Ever been in a cop car in real life?
Yeah.

56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away recently?
Nope.

57. Our Lady Peace or Nickelback?
Definitely Nickelback.

58. What’s something that really bugs you?
People.

59. Do you like Michael Jackson?
I like his dancing.

60. Taco Bell or Burger King?
Burger King.

61. What’s your favorite perfume?
Dior?

62. Favorite baseball team?
Don't know any.

63. Ever call a 1-900 phone number?
No.

64. Nipple or Nose rings?
Nose.

65. What’s the longest time you’ve gone without sleep?
48 hours.

66. Last time you went bowling?
Can't remember.

67. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
Swimming pool grandstand.

68. Who was your last phone call?
Jasper.

69. Last time you were at work?
Don't work.

70. What’s the closest orange object to you?
My swimming bag.

Skipped swimming today,
due to some lung infection.
oh well, went to ion instead.
so crowded. ):
i enjoyed my lunch.
And im so tired now.
But im not gonna sleep till maybe 12.30
Lots of stuff i need to do and havent started on.
I didn't touch my bag this whole weekend.
So no homework has been done.
Not that i care. Never did.
Boyfriend is bringing me to fly kite tomorrow. HAHA.
I'm excited.

Plan A was canceled,
Plan B was a total failure,
Plan C in progress.
I actually need plans. How pathetic.
I hope this would be a success.
I prayed so hard from yesterday till now.
LOL I think only Kimberly would know what I'm talking about.

ohmygod there's a physics test tomorrow.
lucky me.
dynamics somemore. confirm fail.
i dont even know what has been going on in physics,
for the past few months.
and A-maths also.
total crap to me.
and if miss lim happens to read my blog one day,
im gonna get whacked upside down.
please don't sleep don't sleep don't sleep... ):
I think i should go finish up my stuff now.
keep myself occupied. (:

don't leave me out here dancing alone~

2010-04-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

Music: That Should Be Me - Justin Bieber

Today was normal.
I feel so expensive. ):
BUT, its okay.
My boyfriend is so awesome. hahaha. :D

I KEEP thinking today is Sunday. -.-
I was yelling before the exam just now,
because i got so nervous.
And i was stuck at page 10 for at least 30 minutes.
I was so scared can.
Started with practical,
Emily's boyfriend came to support her. (:
first item, I chiong until 3:41. wth.
i never thought i could go that fast.
and he let us switch over. :D nice man.
he was kinda lenient. :/
oh well second item was fine,
i heard asthma as 'extra'
and i knocked into emily and betrick.
third item was okay too.
then initiative. OHMYGOD FUNNY. :D
Round 1,
me emily jasper and eugene were casulty,
emily was bystander.
then jasper and eugene were supposed to be hugging each other in the pool.
my job was awesome.
I stood there,
shouted that jasper and eugene was drowning,
jumps in and tries to save them,
ends up struggling myself,
yuting throw board,
i take and throw somewhere else.
zheng jie come help,
i push his head into the water.
throw board again,
i think i accidentally threw it back at yuting's head. :X
both of them were having a hard time controlling me.
until i saw my examiner's signal from behind,
that i was told to suddenly become unconscious.
yuting and zheng jie must have been so relieved. LOL.
then second round,
i didn't do much.
zheng jie was lying flat on the ground.
so i just dragged him up,
emily did the CPR,
and then i watched jasper trying to drag zhan peng out of the water.
zhan peng pushed betrick in.
and then they started drowning.
funny. :D
then theory, 4 parts, we must pick one.
two by two.
betrick picked principles of water rescue and said it was easy.
so i picked it too.
went there.
he asked me which one.
i said principles of water rescue.
then he said okay,
and then he stared at me. What the hell.
i stun there for 5 seconds,
before realising i was supposed to name all 6 principles out.
then i accidentally named the 2nd one first. -.-
then the 12 laps part.
I did about 10 or 8,
since he wasnt counting anyway.
passed, im glad. :D

Tomorrow is Sunday.
long day ahead. :/
I miss Andrei!!!! D:
Monday faster come please.
Happy birthday to Zhihui, Jason, Hasyim and Ellson.
The 4th April gang. :D

2010-04-02T19:55:00.004+08:00

Music: For Your Entertainment - Adam Lambert

I got this from Xenia's blog. (:

I don't even know why I'm posting.
I have no reason to, since nothing interesting happened today.
I think my boyfriend's phone died, since he isn't replying.
And Kingston just told me he went to I don't know where. ._.
Okay never mind. ):
I shall wait then.

Woke up at 5.30am this morning,
but then still left late.
Went straight to bishan,
too many people were using josticks.
I ended coughing non-stop for half an hour. LOL.
Then went on to yio chu kang or ang mo kio,
I can't remember which one.
Finally when we were done, headed to toa payoh to eat breakfast.
Awesome breakfast. Hahahaha.
Then went to woodlands mart,
to cut my hair, my sister's hair, and my mummy's hair.
I never thought cutting hair could take so long.
And then Manting was there too. :D
Oh well, my hair is shorter now.
I hope it grows faster. D:

Went home, on-ed MSN,
decided to just check with Betrick what do i need to study roughly.
And from what i see now,
I don't think I'm gonna survive the exam tomorrow.
Walao. Page 10-127. -.-
That is practically the whole book can.
I am so dead.
I should study some now,
and then continue with the rest tomorrow morning...
I slept for 3-4 hours just now I think.
I wish i didn't.
Because now i can't even talk to Andrei. ):

Oh well, today passed quite fast.
tomorrow should be faster.
Sunday would be slow I think.
I'm so sad now...
Alright, enough posting.
I should go get some exam stuff into my head before its too late.

2010-04-01T21:27:00.002+08:00

JASON DERULO! :D

I probably wouldn't go tomorrow.
i will feel so extra.
everybody got partner except me. -.-
i gotta go qing ming tomorrow.
oh well, got school also no difference, still need wake up early.
mass run was canceled, fuck lah.
idiot people who are cheering,
you have to run sooner or later anyway,
and you choose to run the confusing-five-round-field-route.

sang happy birthday song for miss lim today,
although her birthday was yesterday. LOL.
mr lim actually came to find me to ask if i handed up history yet,
and i said yes not knowing which homework he was referring to,
as long as its not the five-headed dog one. :D

this morning boyfriend called, i woke up, fell asleep again.
then started rushing.
then argued something before going out of the house, so my mood was spoiled.
but then after seeing Andrei my mood change again. LOL.
BREAKFAST AT MACS! :D
the stack of tissue papers. ._.
super entertaining. hahaha.
then walked to school,
kingston went to join the exercise/dancing with all the aunties.
wah i laugh like siao.
then in school, my classroom still locked,
so boyfriend accompanied me sit under those umbrella tables.
then his pen cap drop.
affendy come, his pen drop.
come again. bag drop. LOL.

went to class,
we decided to turn all the tables and face the back of the classroom.
apparently mrs lee was confused.
ok funniest thing in 2010 yet:
my report book comment.
"Clarissa is a very quiet girl, and needs to interact more with her classmates."
Haiqal started going pui continuously. LOL.
my parents couldn't stop laughing. -.-
shes either blind, or deaf.
for first time in history,
theres a teacher saying that i need to talk more.
fine. i SHALL talk more.

OKAY, today was.. not very exciting. ( school time)
english, played with erasers.
akib had the pony one,
and kimberly refused to let go of it.
hahhh boyfriend made ribena for me today. <3
so nice. :D
this weekend, confirm very boring.
i need to go popular.
I have no eraser,
I have no correction tape,
I owe haiqal a correction tape,
I have no black pen,
I have no scissors,
I have no glue,
I want liquid paper to play with,
I want a new red pen.

clash of the titans.
im so not going tomorrow. sorry zhihui! D:
i shall feel so extra.
i wanna watch so many movies,
and i wanna go wild wild wet,
and i wanna go universal studios.
Am going there for my birthday plus my sister birthday combined.
ask Mark to help me buy tickets. LOL.
i keep thinking i forgot to do something,
but I just dont know what.
AM test this Saturday,
apparently no one remembered to remind me to bring BM cert.
i scared theoryyy. ohmygod.
cfm cannot answer.
yck lifeguard as examiner.

okay i think i shall stop typing. :/
I sound so long winded.

2010-03-31T20:47:00.002+08:00

Music: In My Head - Jason Derulo

Kimberly told me to post.
I'm so angry with myself.
How can someone be so stupid. Seriously.
Never mind... ):
Mass run tomorrow, to me it doesn't matter if it rains i guess.
I don't mind anything.
I FINALLY FINISHED PHOTO JOURNALISM! :D
I'm so happy.
thank you Anna for printing it for me.
breakfast with boyfriend tomorrow! (:
kim just reminded me that there's history homework to do.
ohmygod. ):
my mood has gone down again.
I better go do it now.
I shall go listen to muttons to midnight too. :D
I have so many things i wanted to post,
but after i come here,
my mind just goes blank.
maybe i should write the stuff down,
but that would be just retarded.
soooo, oh well. :D BYE DUDES.

2010-03-28T20:12:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday Nabil.
In My Head by Jason Derulo is awesome man. LOLOL.
Zhihui has good song taste.
alright shall talk about my weekend.

SATURDAY.
woke up,
supposed to eat breakfast.
i realised what damage a middle finger can actually do.
and then went RELC in the afternoon.
saw domonic, zandra, claire, daryl, crystal?
alright had a long day.
east coast for dinner,
then headed home.

SUNDAY.
Morning, woke up late,
went to church later.
people started arguing about breakfast. -.-
went in had service,
banged my head _|_
then went to lunch,
pretty restaurant, best horfun ever. LOLOL.
went straight to swimming,
3rd april is the exam,
oh god, i realised there still theory.
spinal injury somemore!
i need someone the remind me to bring my BM cert.
and i need to ask questions about theory,
so im gonna spam betrick's phone. -.-
then an idiot... okay nevermind.
went home,
my father decided to cook after 5 years.
steak imported form australia.
it was awesome. :D
then my mother combined it with apples because nobody felt like eating rice.
oh well, apples are nice too.

Fuck.
A fourteen year old girl, who cant even use her own legs. -.-

Alright, kope-ed a quiz from kelvin's blog.

1.What does the sixteenth text in your inbox say?
Its only until 12.

2.Has someone ever told you they would be with you forever?
I think so.

3.Last person you were in the car with?
Mum , father , sister.

4.Any plans for tomorrow?
Nope.

5. How long does it take you to have a shower?
5-10 minutes.

6.When is your birthday?
5th April.

7.Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
Not sure. ):

8.Did you kiss anyone on friday?
Nope.

9.Ever thrown up in public?
Yeah.

10.What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
CAR CAR CAR and still cars.

11.Who was the last person you talked to?
Andrei.

12.What is the WORST subject they teach at school?
Physics.

13.Have you seen anyone lately that you don't get along with?
Not that i remember.

14.What is your favorite colour shirt to wear?
White?

15.Have you ever been in a car accident?
Four times.

16.Whats the closest thing to you that's green?
My mouse pad.

17.What would you like to be doing right now?
Seeing Andrei.

18.Write down some lyrics to the song your listening to.
Just keep pushing on~

19.How many dogs do you have?
No dogs.

20.Is anything bugging you right now?
Yes.

21.How is life going for you right now?
Better then last year.

22.Is there someone you care about more than yourself?
Many. (:

23.What made you laugh today?
I didn't .

24.What was the last film you watched?
Storm breaker I think.

25.What's the last conversation you had about?
Talking to Andrei about cakes. LOL.

26.What were you doing at 7:00 this morning?
Sleeping.

27. Do you like your hair long or short?
Long.

28.Do you want to see somebody right now?
I wish to see alot of people now. ):

29.Do you like the rain?
Love it.

30.Do you think you'll have a Valentine this year?
Its over. And i didn't have one.

31.The last person you kissed needs you at 3 AM, would you go?
Probably.

32.Would you honestly say you'd risk your life for someone else?
Yes.

33.Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you?
I don't think so.

34.Could you see yourself with someone forever?
Well, yeah.

35.What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
Whether my boyfriend has woken up already. :D

36.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?
I... don't know.

37.Do you forgive and forget?
No .

38.Do you trust people?
Yes.

39.What are you not looking forward to?
Many things.

40.Do you get mad easily?
Yes.

41.Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Um, I think so.

42.Do you have strange dreams?
Yeap, all the time.

54. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Yes. I would like to celebrate as many as possible. :D

55. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Nah.

56. Last thing you bought?
Chicken.

57. Are you a jealous person?
Yes.

58. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
No.

59. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
No.

60. Have you ever had your heart broken? If so, how many times?
Bout 5 or 6.

61. Do you like to cuddle/snuggles?
Yeah.

62. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Andrei! :D

63. How far away is the last person you hugged?
Very far.

64.Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Nope.

65. Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
Its better this year.

66. This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
Yes. ):

67. You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
Water.

68. Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't?
Yeah.

69. What is the last thing you said out loud?
"I cant remember."

70. When was the last time you cried?
Not too long ago..

71. Do you have friends you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?
Not really.

72. What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Fall.

88. Who disgusts you?
Nobody yet.

89. Name one thing people think about you that's not true?
I don't know.

90. Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
Wavy.

91. Do you drink tea?
Yes.

92. How do you feel about chocolate covered strawberries?
Cute.

93. Do you currently have feelings for anybody?
Yeah. (:

94. Have you ever stripped for money?
No.

95. Is the last person you kissed more than a year older than you?
Same age.

96. Ever kissed someone with the letters c, a, p,d, q, s or j as their first initial?
Yup.

97. Two days from now this time, where will you be?
India.

98. Do you think you are a good person?
No. I make people sad all the time.

99. Who are your favourite people?
Andrei, my sister and my five friends.

100.Do you hate spammers?
Nope.

2010-03-26T23:04:00.002+08:00

Its not about whether you fall down, its about whether you get up.

From one of those inspiration posters I found in the dance studio. LOL.
apparently there's a lot more.
Today was actually going okay until i got home.
My mood can change really fast.
I just realised that.
And the best thing is,
i keep saying i want to go home.
BUT, my life is boring,
i go home,
i do something wrong,
then i get canned or scolded.
same routine everyday without fail.
and although it happened for the past fifteen years of my life,
i still don't know why i can never get used to it.
oh well,
at least it wakes me up,
reminding myself that i am still living in jail,
and life is no fairytale.

At least when i am sad,
i got Andrei to go to,
i got jokers like Anna and Kimberly.
and that's good enough for me.
Can someone tell me,
why is it that i am the one,
who has to get the life,
like i am living in a very comfortable prison cell.
i rather live in an actual prison cell and get all the freedom i want.
Sometimes when i experience some unhappy stuff,
i wonder if its just me or there are actually other people in this world,
who also experiences the same types of things, in the same particular manner.
if there is,
i want to go shake hands with them and treat them starbucks coffee.

nevermind,
i cant change reality.
sometimes i like to just pull my curtains all the way up,
lie on my bed,
look at the moon,
and dream of how i would like my life to be like.
one day i would like to go to the moon.
Honest.
and im gonna bring something huge with me.
it would actually be funny,
if you're in Singapore,
you look up,
and you see something that's making the moon look out of shape. LOL.

I used to keep wishing if there was any date i would like to go back to,
it would be primary 5.
not anymore. (:
Not since Andrei became part of my life.
HAH. Im so darn lucky. :D

alright,
Kimberly just told me Anna actually completed photo journalism.
i actually forgotten all about it.
i guess i would do it on my journey for anti-drug competition,
because that's the only thing i went and actually have pictures of it.

okay,
i should go sleep now,
because my boyfriend told me to sleep half an hour ago. ):
Things would be so much easier if my parents actually gave me permission for anything at all.

2010-03-25T19:31:00.002+08:00

Whats a relationship without problems?
Everyone has them,
but not all can solve them.
I am going to do what it takes to continue this relationship,
no matter what happens.
Andrei Siew Zi Jian, I love you. (:

Today reminded of the fourteenth year of my life.
one word, corrupted.
crying doesnt help with the situation,
it just makes you feel worse.
But for some reason, no one seems to be able to control it.
oh well,
at least i survived just now.

Today was not really good,
i almost died from 100plus.
talk about my blog url,
during pet rocket it really did shoot.
YES IT DID.
and and and, if i see 100plus again,
im gonna scream.
I swear im not gonna drink that for the next 5 years of my life.

I wish people would just forget my birthday.

6 days left.

2010-03-23T20:57:00.002+08:00

R.I.P. my orange clip file. (:

Today was... boring. -.-
Finally i get to see my boyfriend in the morning. :D:D:D
Then was the NE forum thing.
Some YOG thing? i also dont know.
Then went back to class,
realised i forgot to bring my file and my modern dance hair stuff. _|_
I NEED A NEW BAG.
Handed in my physics file without doing any corrections.
Couldn't be bothered.
Got the papers inside can le.
Chemistry.
I almost fell asleep.
If mdm jo wasn't sitting at the back, i probably would have.
What ionic bonding thing. ._.
After that double period POA.
Balance sheet. I could understand, and so, it was FUN. :D
Recess.
Maths.
Chinese.
Hah. nobody finished up holiday homework.
Miss Soo ended up with a whole stack of ez-link cards. LOL.
Chiong-ed down to modern dance after that,
I feel so guilty for not doing CD through the arts. ):

THEN I FINALLY GET TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND. <3
He brought me home and then i saw Selina.
And best of all Mr Wee.
Oh we are so dead. LOL.

okay. ;D
12 more days. Hahaha.
I'm actually excited.

2010-03-22T20:32:00.000+08:00

I miss Andrei! D:

2010-03-20T22:30:00.002+08:00

run350 was awesome.
today was awesome,
yesterday was awesome,
man march holidays wasnt so bad after all after i experienced these two days.
today super funny lah.
everybody run 5km except george,
he go left until 7km. LOL.
talked in the train.
all keep talking about taiwan and korea.
walao me and nabil ago listen mp3. ):
took us so long to get to the changi village hotel.
so nice man. :D
transparent lifts. hahahaha.
then went to put bag,
had this energy drink,
and realised it was for.... :/
oh well, everybody got one sip.
then went to pulau ubin.
BOAT RIDE SO SHIOK.
wind blow, awesome view = :D:D:D
then reached,
kelvin got a free can of 100plus.
ah ma coffee shop. (:
then drank milo before the run.
whole thing was so fun. :D
splashed water on my own face accidentally.
and marcus poured 100plus on his head. LOL.
then sat in the boat again,
went back to the hotel,
took bags, mr chong bought us drinks.
serene went off,
took taxi to simei?
kelvin went off.
ate dinner at long john silver. :D:D:D
george took my fries.
then went back with nabil marcus and george.
long trip back,
talked alot about stuff.
haha nice feeling. :D
alright going off the comp now,
so tired. ._.
goodnight people!!!!!

2010-03-16T21:43:00.002+08:00

today was actually funny.
woke up,
eat some bread sticks from the fridge,
cos i was lazy to take out milk for the honey stars.

went to school,
just in time.
i sit down, miss lim walk in. LOL.
did 3.2 3.3 4.1 and file and some other stuffs.
ohmygod there TYS homework. ):
lucky chiong evrything in time.
from 12.40 onwards i kept complaining to haiqal that i was so late. LOL.
i was going up and down on my chair and squirming.
then at 1, i shoot out of the classroom,
when everybody's still inside and taking their time,
not knowing if we're even allowed to leave yet.

ran halfway,
until Andrei said it was 1.25 instead of 12.10 -.-
so walked the rest of the way LOL.
went to yishun with agnes kimberly andrei affendy yong tat
and met the rest at the station,
went to the cinema,
apparently i didnt even know what movie it was.
being human. jack neo film.
FUNNY LAAA LOL.
then it ended at 3.35 ):
ran out and took taxi with kimberly to school,
wa felt so scared.
so we got punished,
and i stupid stupid go say i havent finish running. -.-

ah well.
the dance is really fun.
andrei brought me home.
hahahahaha. oh well, parents are no more,
at least i still got my sister,
i still got Andrei.
so, im happy.

2010-03-15T21:26:00.003+08:00

today is... MONDAY. :D
yesterday was okay i suppose.
woke up late,
so no breakfast,
ran downstairs to find anna,
bus-ed to school.
turned out we were early. ._.
so went outside plaza singapura,
changed, paint face.
rehearsals on stage,
then sit there and be bored,
walk here walk there,
watch other schools,
and then at 12 or something,
my boyfriend came! :D:D:D:D
i kept yelling backstage man.
scared until jump here and there and scream. LOLOL.
i did everything except the floor part.
i had a feeling i would forget.
and i did. -.-

otherwise it was okay.
then boyfriend bought me two pancake stuffs and bubble tea.
went back by bus, and andrei sat with me. <3
almost fell asleep.
and anyway i did in the second bus.
oh well, i was tired. :/

TODAY:
woke up,
practice piano,
eat breakfast.
and was supposed to go out with my sister.
and talk to my father,
and thats when it started.
i used to think,
if there was ever a couple who really could stick together forever once they're married,
it would be my parents.
now i know how wrong i was.

started arguing about a pe shirt with my mother.
i guess my father wont be coming back anymore.
my mother's finally getting a job.
and now im stuck with myself,
cos my sis is usually in school the entire day.

rushed to school, got wet.
i wanna pon tomorrow.
but im saving my attitude problems till after friday,
i have never seen myself so good before.
modern dance was okay,
realised we're doing jazz for speech day.
next year is contemp year. noooooooooo~

maths class tomorrow ):
crap.
then movie,
then modern dance ):
man i wish i didnt have to go home.
shit this world.

2010-03-12T22:17:00.002+08:00

Music: Ai Qing Xue Ce - Bang Bang Tang
reminds me of someone...

today was er... okay?
sports carnival seem more fun in sec 1 somehow.
frisbee was normal, didnt move much.
then went round and round,
dodgeball,
basically all i did,
was stand there watch all the balls fly everywhere,
dodge a little bit, pass the balls to my team mates,
and we got third place. LOL.
i didnt even throw at all.
stand there do nothing.
and i didnt get hit at all, except by kingston. -.-
watched basketball,
walao so hot. like open air barbecue or something.
ahh stupid i couldnt watch andrei play because it was the same time as dodgeball finals.
so i ran down, saw like 2 seconds of the game, and there goes the whistle. -.-

walked round and round,
i couldnt be more bored.
tried to watch soccer got bored,
ended up playing with my own knuckles.
then went to watch netball, ended up crushing a wattle bottle,
went to the canteen,
and realised i forgot to take my money,
so i ran everywhere looking for hani,
and then realised the class was already open.

watch tug-of-war,
ended up raining.
went to class,
sleep on the table, and then called kimberly!!!
said byebye,
let her say bye to weiheng junjie jihui and peikai too,
then final bye,
went to the hall,
tried to listen who win,
started playing with my kunckles again.
5/2 hyper sia.

then went cwp, ate long john silvers,
best fries in the world. (:
took 962 back,
a guy sat on a chewing gum ._.
no wonder anna suddenly burst out laughing like a retard.
took me awhile to realise.
went home,
piano class -.-
apparently my third finger joint is swollen,
i didnt even realise.
my knuckles are all purple and red. HAH.
my piano teacher was staring so hard somemore.
and when she was trying to explain the dynamics stuff to me for the adagio thing,
suddenly remembered andrei putting his hand up for the bus,
walao i burst out laughing,
and then now its my turn to look like a retard. LOL.
stupid lah.

OKAY modern dance tomorrow,
plus the jj lin concert.
i want to watch breakout. ):
no money + no time = not gonna watch.
wa sadded lah.
okay modern dance tomorrow,
ohmygod, im gonna die soon man.
sunday competition,
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
people come cheer kay. :D i know no one will come LOL.
oh well gave up my milo triathlon position for some ACJC girl,
i feel like slapping myself.
stupid. now i gotta wait till national triathlon. -.-

saturday - modern dance + concert
sunday - dance competition
monday - modern dance
tuesday - modern dance
wednesday - ALSO got modern dance -.-
thursday - piano exam
friday - SENTOSA/lunch with 6B?
walao i scared i cmi.
i will kill myself man. if really cmi.
many many homework to do.
many hours of piano practicing this week.
i scared i fail lah D:

well at least Andrei is coming to fetch me tomorrow.
thats something to look forward to.
other than that,
i was so freaked out by the news i heard this morning.
angry until siao.
i feel like breaking glass. LOL.
OKAYYYYY. i shall go do my stuff,
and wait for tomorrow morning to come. -.-

2010-03-11T20:36:00.003+08:00

today was funny. LOL.
3km today.
walao not as tiring. cos no time.
but still, i didnt die today like last week. GOOOOD.

i OWN all of them but running into the school first. HAHA.
funny.
then i went to the umbrella tables there,
sit with anna ashlie and diyanah,
bought one bottle of water,
drink,
buy second bottle put there.
then andrei came and bought me another one. <3
so 3 bottle.
drink until bloated. LOL.

physics.
mrs lee really epic fail lah. LOL
did kinematics test,
and the test just tells me that i really dont know what the hell is kinematics.
then was maths,
and i dont think i remembered what we learnt.
recess, fell asleep on the table. :D
did the chem file stuffs.
english,
kept praying he wont call me to do speech,
and he didnt. WHOOOOOOOOOO~
means i got an extra day,
cos i prepared like 5 minutes before.
but then again,
i dont think i would use the time in the end.
chemistry,
mdm jo gave out lollipops, and there wasnt enough,
so haiqal me weiheng celine ended up eating jellies.
YAY :D
i count the down the minutes every lesson with haiqal using the calculator. LOL.
people should try it.
makes time past faster.

then went 883,
bought a waffle.
I SAW MUHAIMIN. LOL
apparently he has grown too.
and he said anna shrank. HAH.
went back to the cc,
OKAY THIS IS SOMETHING I HAVE BEENLOOKING FORWARD TO POST ABOUT.

clarissa: im tired!
kimberly: i dont care.
clarissa: what time ah?
kimberly: you do finish this part then i tell you!
clarissa;i need to go toilet.
kimberly: you dont do this properly i dont let you go!
clarissa: but i really need to go toilet!!!
kimberly: NO! you do this first!
clarissa: PLEASEEEE!
kimberly: NO. ARM STRAIGHTER!!!
kimberly: STARIGHTER!
kimberly: STRAIGHT!
kimberly: STRONGER!!!
kimberly: YOU MUST BE A STRONG INDEPENDENT WOMAN!
kimberly: ARM STRAIGHTER LAH!
clarissa: can i go buy water?
kimberly: you do this part properly then i let you go!
kimberly: *holds my phone* oh you got a message from Andrei!
clarissa: LET ME SEE.
kimberly: NO! you do properly then you can pick one!
clarissa: walaooo
melissa: whats going on?
kimberly: im using her boyfriend's message to make her do it properly.
melissa: okay very good continue.
clarissa: WHAT THE HELL.
kimberly: STRONGER! STRAIGHTER! STRAIGHTTTTTT!!!!!!
clarissa: I WANT TO SLAP YOU CAN.
kimberly: STRAIGHTER WOMAN. STRONGER! BE THAT STRONG INDEPENDENT WOMAN.
-end-
its not in order FYI.
but oh well.

walao make me so angry. -.-
then got chased out by the uncle.
so went to some carpark's top floor.
ah shit the floor so rough,
my knees are black and red with lines.
then went down.
my boyfriend got lost again! LOL.
send me to the door,
and now i feel so awesome once again.
at the rate this is going,
im going to feel so awesome everyday.

ahh sports carnival tomorrow,
dodgeball here i come again. (:
class tee tomorrow then done.
because "GREATNESS" became "GREATHESS"
wth.
okay im so excited,
in fact, im excited everyday. (:
yay. march holidays here i come too,
and piano exam,
and sentosaaaaaaaaaa. :D

2010-03-10T17:16:00.004+08:00

ok this has gone far enough.
seriously why can't i do this properly,
i keep messing things up once it starts.
i cant seem to do one thing and please everybody at the same time.
something, will just have to go wrong somehow.
yeah currently my mood just dropped 1000 kilometres underground.
i wish i was allowed.
then maybe all this wouldnt be so difficult.
it feels like some cycle,
repeating again and again.
but yet i told myself this time not to spoil it,
and make this work as well as possible.
i dont even know whether to laugh or cry.
everything is going wrong again.
AND IT JUST STARTED.

i shall see,
what happens in a month,
i wouldnt be surprised if i crashed my whole life once again,
and i have to start crawling up again just like last year.
seriously. i have never known anyone who could be stupider.
its like you know its wrong,
and yet you still want to do it,
you know its not gonna turn out right,
AND YOU STILL DO IT,
for myself.
how selfish.
and here am i, enjoying my own life,
without even caring about other people.

and so im taking everything for granted.
when will the day come,
when someone actually comes up to me and slap me real hard.
so that i'll wake up.
i had a hole in my heart for 13 months,
and its finally starting to close.
sometimes i wonder if i didnt start anything since sec one,
would my life have been much happier.

2010-03-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

okay alot of people are asking me why i dont have a tagboard,
and i have a very simple reason.
i intend to insult ALOT ALOT of people in the future,
and so, i want my blog to be scold-free.
tyvm. okay done.

if that bitch ever touch any of my friends again she is so dead.
act gangster. _|_
think you very big uh.

today was normal.
a-maths was easier then i thought.
but, pray i get method marks from somewhere. anywhere.
alright, then had double period maths,
miss lim still not back yet.
heng, later she scream about e-maths paper.
monday everybody die x2 e-maths + a-maths.
recess was okay?
i was running around buying my water.

then POA,
miss teo also never come,
so i spent my time doing andrei's letter. (:
then they give us newspaper. -.-
DIGITAL LIFE CHANGE TO LITTLE RED DOT.
WHAT IS THIS. >:(
ANGRY SIA.

after that go cwp,
eat mos burger,
took us so long to decide,
cwp exploding with SAS students,
walao so many cute angmohs. (:
then went back to school,
had to u-turn back to woodlands cc,
did our anti-drug stuff there,
i had to keep falling and crawling on the floor,
my hands and knees in the end all black.

** friends came up.
LOL nice people apparently.
but shes so dead.
alright, went home,
watched tv, ate my dinner,
practice piano.
now head pain again.
DARN YOU KIMBERLY BRACKEN.
im sniffing like hell.
okay nevermind.
goodnight people!

2010-03-04T20:13:00.005+08:00

chiong-ed to cwp to buy shoes yesterday.
then go sports link.
then suddenly at the door one head come appear,
go away, appear then go away again.
LOL GEORGE.
after disappear then i laugh like siao,
my father stare at me.

oh well.
i didnt quite like today.
thankyou marcus for running with me.
"later you get kidnapped" LOL!
basically died until mr chong said "regulate your breathing"
then walao suddenly can chiong like siao,
but then everybody reach liao. -.-

meiyi did speed teaching for me,
explained the whole of whatever we haven learnt during poa,
from january. 15 minutes.
wa world record lah.
thanks to that,
i think i should be able to pass. hahaha.
i shall treat her a drink if i do. (:

then i felt so funny during maths and physics,
and then it dawn on me only till english,
that i was sick.
thanks alot kimberly. -.-
i was like using anna's tissues.
and big big headache.
then keep pouring water in to anna's bottle. LOL.
layping likes ben 10 and teentitans too.
ohmygod yay. (:

very difficult to listen during chem,
and then 3/9 was hilarious. LOL.
all point outside the classroom.
that livened me up abit.
i lovee 3/9 :D
then finally dismissal.
chiong out of school that time,
went on the left side of bookshop,
was mdm rekkha mdm soh miss guo and one more teacher standing there.
U-turn! LOL.
then run. :D
lucky their attention on somebody else.
went bus stop met siangyee.
so i waited for a 965 with her,
saw jonathan on the bus.
then went home.
never felt so happy to go home straight away in my life.

i realised people like to ask me for advice.
why me, i dunno.
and then i usually wontknow what to say,
so i give crap words,
which turns out so useful for them. :D

Andrei: come sentosa on saturday leh!
me: with who?
andrei: kingston and alot of people.
me: alot of people is?
andrei: affendy stephen justin fenghao.
wthwth. then make friends uh? LOL.
all guys somemore.
and theres modern dance on saturday! ahhhh.

and i just woke up. hahaha.
i hope i pass a-maths tomorrow.

dont you just feel so unhappy when you see what these people write in their blogs.

2010-03-02T20:54:00.004+08:00

we have a very funny physics teacher. LOL.
laugh like siao for the double period yesterday.
man i love 3/9. (:
3 korean words. :D

why does everyone suddenly keep using ebuddy. ._.
i have no running shoes.
even george has bought his.
if i dont buy,
i gonna be the only one wearing school shoes on thursday.

modern dance was fine...
we are getting on realllllyyyyyy welll. LOL.
extra practice on friday, since it was supposed to be moe exel fest.
ah well, chemistry tomorrow.
i hope i dont mess up.

i wonder how will i die in the future

2010-02-28T14:21:00.003+08:00

thankyou to kimberly, diyanah, jazlyn, vivian.
for backing me up yesterday.
sorry about your tagboard diyanah. LOL.

first of all,
i dont care who you are,
i insult who i want when i want.
i dont judge people by their looks,
i judge them by what they have done.
and yes linda, i LOVE to criticise people. (:
and last of all,
from what i remembered,
i have insulted no one,
that has got anything to do with you people,
including huijuan.
and so, now that i have said this,
linda, psb, sdsad and whichever other people,
PLEASEEEEEE dont pollute my friend's blog. -.-
you want to say, come and tell me.
i will be thrilled to hear whatever bedtime stories you wish to share.

2010-02-26T21:41:00.005+08:00

i initially intended on giving eugene koko krunch. ._.
because i finished the cake.
people must think im mad shouting upwards from the window.

ALRIGHT.
today was... okay i suppose.
went to school in uniform and had to borrow anna's pe attire.
history, source base.
what the hell was the first source saying i dont even know. ._.
oh well, nevermind.

THE PE.
awesome man.
but i couldnt even move my legs,
so i just stoned there watching my friends laugh and have fun.
honestly even when i laugh its so difficult.
zul was telling me how awkward i looked when i walked. LOL.
anyway, haiqal jason zul and norizwan,
always use so much effort to catch the frisbee,
then out of anxiousness, just anyhow fling it up high,
and it goes like way out of the court,
and then we all will burst out laughing like a bunch of idiots.
because it was so funny.
apparently all the guys can catch well.
at least when i throw they can catch.

okay, then was maths.
miss lim did the matrix questions.
funny man.
9 questions,
last two were indices.
i think im at least gonna pass e-maths for the first time.
the whole thing was so epic. LOL.
marie saved us all.
in the end team garfield had to do the forfeit.
and then elimination,
and then jihui did something really funny!

recess was nothing much,
ate tuna sandwich, finally said hello to gerald. (:
and kimberly told me something that got me angry.
stupid asshole.

POA was stupid.
we had to do corrections,
and i kept asking miss teo for the next assignment,
you get it after you finish your corrections.
but for some reason,
everytime she came to check my corrections,
there was something missing. :/
so i had to keep calling her again and again.
and then i realised i was the only person she checked -.-
by the time i managed to get my assignment3,
there was about 2 minutes left for the bell to ring.
so much for rushing.

alright, ate lunch,
modern dance.
we're almost done.
i need to learn how to control my laughter.
acting stupid with people laughing around me doesnt help at all.
oh thank god modern dance doesn't use the hall.
more people will laugh at me.
and ANNA. LOL.
miss soo was also laughing -.-
ahh but its awesome.
choreo also not bad.
miss jenny helping us to make it look nicer.

i like it when anna imitates people.
because i will laugh like hell.
and so will kimberly.
after modern dance met diyanah,
then went to buy drinks for myself and anna,
while they talked about jiaqi liking jazlyn. o.o
anyway met weiheng halfway,
told us to help him,
looked behind him,
and i burst out laughing once again. LOLLLL.
i couldnt help it seriously,
looking at her face just makes me laugh.
and he poor thing had to walk all the way home from admiralty to avoid her.
i didnt know people like cy was so free.
like seriously,
i expected more of looking in the mirror for 5 hours a day,
and the rest of the time spent on curling the hair. hah.

IM SO GLAD ITS ON THE FOURTEENTH. OHMYGOD.
that situation almost scared the hell out of me.
anyway, sports carnival coming,
dodgeball for me once again.
hopefully i get to see joohan scream if he plays.
anyway my throwing skills are terrible,
it either doesnt even go near the opponent,
or it just goes up and lands in front of me.
never have been good at ball games anyway. :/
the only time i ever hit someone was iswandi,
and i promised myself i will never play with that group of people again.
*screams and runs for my life*

i cant even walk now,
and its getting worse.
during modern dance stretching,
it was like hell i tell you, HELLLLLL.
oh how am i gonna survive next thursday.
if nabil doesnt come again,
i want a whole day of free meals.

Howie said i ditched him 7 times already.
HONESTLY I DIDNT MEAN IT.
he says if i ditch him one more time,
hes gonna ignore me for life.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

last night i had a dream.
its was something that could never happen in real life though,
and i dont want it to happen either.
but then,
while it was happening,
FOR THE FIRST TIME for that type of situation.,
i actually said the sentence in mind, in the dream.
i didn't know it was that powerful in my subconscious.
at least i proved to myself that i really meant it after all.
man i was so proud of myself.

i realise i talk alot.
okay i shall stop now.
HAHAHAHAHA :D
switching personalities.
its actually quite sad to see it happening.
especially with this two people.

2010-02-25T20:08:00.005+08:00

First, happy birthday to Hani, Eugene and Joslyn tomorrow.
ahh eugene cant hear my happy birthday scream from here. -.-
i sound like an idiot too screaming from my sister's room.

i guess i shall not elaborate on this morning,
but basically im dying here.
my whole body is soo sore.
pain lah. -.-
nabil owes all of us big time. (:
long island drink. LOLOL.

okay.
ss was fine. i finished at like 9.15
then i went to sleep until 9.30. LOL.
didnt check,
didnt think.
just write, then feel asleep.

physics and maths were nothing much.
then english.
mr tsung is colour blind. ._.
and then chem.
OH YA CHEM.
STUPID NIE.
NOW ALSO TAKE OVER MDM JO.
*(@&$*#$^@&*#o)
IM GONNA FORM A RIOT SOON.

i miss those days,
where in primary school you still got so easily get like 90+ for a subject.
and then you will feel like crying when you get like 50 or 60.
now in secondary school.
i actually jumped up in happiness for getting 50 for maths last year.
and then when you skipped cca no one cared,
you can take like so many cca's
and you could hand in your homework in pencil,
and all i used to do last time was to,
eat sleep swim run.
what an awesome life.

then went cwp eat lunch at yoshinoya.
then stomach pain. LOL.
go home, changed,
fell asleep until 7.45pm. ohmygod.
so many people called me when i woke up.
5 miss calls.
okayy. enough for now,
i need to clean up the bloody mess in the living room made by my mum.
and iron my uni.
and find my pe attire.

2010-02-24T17:40:00.002+08:00

Music: Work It - Missy Eliot

THAT SONG IS STUCK IN MY HEAD.
like really,
ever since anna was doing the anti drug song,
then called me back to hear it,
and i ended up fixing it till 1 am in the morning. -.-
ahh anyway finally things are going on better.
steps too simple, but looks good.
but apparently i look so stupid,
trying to be a spy in the m.i. theme song. LOL.
im wearing a mask~
and so does anna. HAHAHHA.

alright,
summary sucked man.
i didnt even finish,
did my draft in pencil,
couldnt hand in. -.-
today's chinese was not any better.
my compre i think almost all wrong.
during compo i had to keep staring into blank space,
because i couldnt think of anything.
i forgot to do physics TYS.
and i dont care!

and stupid lah maths.
just when we got back miss lim from sec one,
a NIE teacher comes and interfere again. -.-
byebye MYE maths.
history also!
we got the HOD humanities,
and *poof*
here comes another NIE teacher,
although he seems quite good.

history was funny,
cos celine kept falling asleep.
and the whole class kept laughing at her.
maths was okay,
was blind today so had to keep borrowing marie's paper.
then jiaying siangyee hani and sharon
were all trying to explain POA to me yesterday.
because i dont know what the hell is going on in,
POA, physics. yeahh. and maybe history.
at least we still got mrs lee for ss. ._.
if another nie teacher comes in,
i swear im gonna scream.
chinese too.
i have such good teachers this year, and theyre all starting to be replaced. -.-
so much for good teachers.

okay modern dance tomorrow, and friday. ._.
no one has still yet to tell me,
where im gonna find everybody
at 6.45am in the morning tomorrow,
when the sky's all black,
and 3.30 in the afternoon, when im in the middle of no where.
OKAY.

i should go back to studiowu like seriously.
i have NOTHING to do to keep my mind occupied.
and so here we go again.
i need someone to slap me and to tell me,
its really over before i wake up.
this is so hard.
i didn't think it would be easy,
but this,
this is really eating me alive, and crushing me at the same time.
ahh what to do,

"maybe if you weren't so stupid none of this would have happened."
"yeah well sorry for being so stupid. -.-"

i know two geralds.
and for some reason both of them are telling me how funny their friends hair is.
what telepathy.
AND GERALD LIM GREW. wth.
so freaking tall.
guys should stop growing lah seriously,
their gonna start making girls look like dwarfs.

2010-02-22T21:17:00.002+08:00

Man i stepped on broken glass on the way back home... -.-
school was okay,
chiong compo during recess,
maths was okay,
had to stand,
because i got the homework dates wrong.
and then physics.
ohmygod she didnt come. so i finished all my homework.
then english.
grammar test was fine.

kim was going psssssssssssssssssst all the way,
and after awhile anna joined in,
so i got so pissed,
i told them to shut up abit too loud,
and everybody turned to stare at me. ._.

i have been talking to gerald for the past...
3 hours?
omg.

alright. i wanna scold somebody.

YOU STUPID IDIOT!!! T.T

2010-02-21T21:36:00.003+08:00

today was okay.
had to go amk with taxi,
and my mom was confusing the taxi driver.
"where do you want to exit?"
"ang mo kio avenue 3"
"eh no 5."
Then after that?
"ang mo kio avenue 6"
"eh no 10."
"eh wait. before that is avenue 4."
-.-

poor driver.
anyway swimming was okay.
4.01 today.
i cant rmb what i usually did.
emily's boyfriend came today too.
AM test, last week of march.
piano exam, 18 march.
what the crap, i cannot miss school. -.-
and tomorrow common test start.

im practicing piano like siao lah.
i think after piano exam my hands will be temporarily out of order.
like seriously.
i destroyed my wrist doing scales in the afternoon.

okay, had dinner at grand hotel pacific just now.
LOBSTER!
SHARK FIN!
STEAM FISH!
ABALONE!

yeah okay, the birthday cake was like durian flavour,
so thank god my cousin bought me a chocolate cake of my own to eat.
for herself too. (:
the -no durian zone-
exclusive club yeah.
which no one else wants to join. LOL.
everybody seem so happy just now.
and OHOH by the way,
i wore a SKIRT.
like seriously, not counting uniform,
i have not worn a skirt in like 3 years. i think.
i was forced to wear some white spaghetti stripe top,
with a black mini skirt,
a black coatie thing,
and boots.
i wore SKIRT and BOOTS.
and i carried a PURSE.
i never felt so girl in my life! LOL.
not counting modern dance.

OKAYY.
its like stuff are coming up one after another.
well, good.
the more things to keep me busy the better.
at least i wont keep anyhow think. -.-
i think,
i talk to myself too much nowadays. LOL.

2010-02-18T20:18:00.006+08:00

BEN 10!

BEN 10 ALIEN FORCE! LOL.
where the hell is alien x??? ._.

TEEN TITANS!!!
LOL im being so stupid.
but theyre so awesome. (:

2010-02-16T18:45:00.005+08:00

WHEN CAN I GET MY BOX BACK!?
Music: We Are Golden - MIKA

alright today wasnt too bad.
morning i basically played collapse all the way.
then after noon went cwp with my sister to watch...
PERCY JACKSON AND THE OLYMPIANS: THE LIGHTNING THEIF
awesome movie. (:
HE IS SO CUTE!
then when we came out we saw mark and michael.
mark was staring blankly waving
my sister did the same.
me and michael just stare at each other with mouths open.
i dont know why.
epic scene.
and then went downstairs to buy my long john silver fries.
and lucky me,
andrei and kingston saw me.
at first they said hello,
and then the stupid question came out. -.-

so i ate my fries,
waited for my father and mother,
then went to casablanca to bai nian.
go my uncle house.
ohmygod he has a ps3!
then explored abit.
look down the window,
saw lots of people,
and then i saw jianye swimming. ._.

casablanca has many angmos, i dont know why.
its like, they are everywhere.
then went to vista point for dinner.
because we skipped lunch.

anyway at midnight yesterday kim showed me this video,
MTV's best kiss award.
WTF it was so hot lah.
its like the connection was so good,
and the way they clinged on was like,
wow.
how nice if i could experience it. LOL

im losing control again.
i need to learn self control better. -.-
today was important so nevermind.
tomorrow onwards.
i should stop.
im getting so used to this,
like some circle of live revolving around technology.

2010-02-16T01:15:00.001+08:00

Howie: I hate valentine.
Clarissa: I hate valentines too.
Hsiang Wee: I hate valentines three.

2010-02-14T23:16:00.003+08:00

i have so little relatives to visit i can go off at like 12.
today is 14 febuary.
and on this day 365 days ago, was probably the best day of my life.
and so i shall celebrate that myself.
honestly i have a really SMALL family. ._.

so of course i went to bai nian,
1st house: Grandmother's house. (father side)
2nd house: i duno where, but got one green duck chair.
3rd house: The place where i watched soccer on tv. chelsea- arsenal (3-1) LOL.
4th house: The place where i ate the jelly and peanuts.
5th house: Grandmother's house. (mother's side)

i honestly didnt expect to get much money this year,
and i was right.

spent the entire after noon from 4-10pm
playing wii guitar hero, band hero, just dance, sing it.
and ps3. i duno what the hell those games are,
but anyway i did alot of shootings with guns and stuff.
just dance on wii was super funny,
i almost felt like rolling on the floor to laugh.
its like WHO LET THE DOGS OUT.
the shake the wii control like siao like spasm. LOL.
i probably looked seriously stupid. but it was awesome. (:
just wait till i buy it.
then i can trash kor kor kelvin in guitar hero. >:)

i didnt think it would be this difficult to keep my mind busy.
so well,
i downloaded SAW and shutter (2004 version) to watch.
but its really starting to freak me out mentally
and i have been scaring my parents,
by starting to scream in the middle of the night.
im gonna start on SAW 2 soon.

if this still doesnt work i dont know what to do already.
what could be worse then using saw to distract my mind. hah.
i guess seeing a couple of body parts being ripped of should at least help the least bit.

soooo, CNY is over for me.
at least for the celebrating part.
i had fun. (:
and i didnt even wear anything new,
except for my blue tank top,
everything else came from stone age.

alright! my mission is like going no where.
i cant believe i keep forgetting to carry out PLAN CC.
but from the way im seeing it,
its definitely confirmed now.
because anna said PLAN YP had only house no.
my father was actually using his phone while driving just now,
he almost drove into the highway railings.
i feel like carrying out PLAN SP.
LOL i sound so stupid naming all this plans.
but how far can kim and anna help me,
im probably gonna have to do it alone when im like halfway through it.

anyway i trying to find activities on march holidays to feel up,
there are 9 days.
i cancel out sundays cos they are already filled,
so thats 7 days left.
on the 13th i got my lifeguard job at milo triathlon in the morning,
and a jj lin youth CNY concert at night.
on the 18th, is my piano exam.
on the 20th, is the ntuc 5km run.
sooo,
4 days left.
monday tuesday wednesday friday.

my sister is taking me to watch percy jackson and the lightning thief,
on tuesday!. :D
just the two of us.
my mood is kinda good now.

man, i just love the feeling when those things flow through me.
its like... i dont even know how to describe my happiness.
and yet im being banned from letting it flow through me.
shessh. -.-

okay i think i have posted long enough. (:

Valentines Day/ Chinese New Year

2010-02-14T08:44:00.004+08:00

i have so little relatives to visit i can go off at like 12.
today is 14 febuary.
and on this day 365 days ago,
was probably the best day of my life.
and so i shall celebrate that myself.

my sister intends to buy me a bikini for my birthday. -.-
oh well,
its still months away.

2010-02-12T20:09:00.002+08:00

Title: Happy Valentines. (:
Mood: okay. (:
Music: Starstrukk - 3OH!3 feat. Katy Perry

in my entire life,
secondary school is probably one of my smallest problems,
yet when youre in the middle of it,
you find it so big,
when you grow older and look back,
you probably burst out laughing finding this all so stupid.

and so when youre in the middle of it,
you feel like making it all okay,
because you just want to enjoy your secondary school life.
and yet again,
when you grow older and look back,
you would have found it a complete waste of time.

when you do things now you always find it so important,
and definitely in the future,
you look back and will go,
i shouldnt have done this this this and that.

and yet sometimes you also get the feeling,
that when you grow older,
for certain situations,
you will feel that you did it right,
no regrets, whatsoever.

you know you are making full use of life,
when youre happy.

the older you grow,
the more you know,
the more you experience.
you meet people of different types,
you learn how to control yourselves over stupid ones,
make friends with the type you like,
and fall in love with people you choose.

and its not me to go on about stuff like that,
its the first time.
in primary school,
i probably never even knew,
that this sort of things could even happen.
and its also stupid to keep thinking about it.
i know so.
but its just too wonderful to forget.
and unfortunately i didnt put it in the box i gave anna.

but its okay.
because in my whole life,
hopefully this is just something that would passby,
something that once happened.
the best thing that has happened to me.

and best of all,
you meet idiotic people who thinks you like them,
meet people who you really like.
people who praise you and see you perfect,
people who insult you and avoid you.

if one day you go to heaven and look down,
its like looking at sims 1902382910573486539.
the big earth gameset,
where you see people going on with life,
having fun,
being sad,
learning things,
and hope for things.

when you fall in love in secondary school,
its just a trial.
some might seem real,
others just a plain mistake.
but you experience it,
lose it,
get on with life.

2010-02-11T19:54:00.002+08:00

i have a very big urge,
to insult ALOT of people now.
actually,
im irritating alot of people currently.

which leads to alot of people hating me right now.
but apparently my mood has changed again,
and i cant be bothered. :/

2010-02-10T22:15:00.002+08:00

Title: Soft toy rose
Mood: swinging here and there
Music: Blah Blah Blah - Ke$ha

ok i practically burst out laughing when i saw that sentence.
LOLLL. darn funny.
reminded me of what i used to think about the exact same person last time.

okay.
i hate it when people start asking "why so sad"
irritates the hell outta me.

I AM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D
i duno who to thank also.
anyway that aside,
i feel like some kind of spy,
and kimberly and anna as my apprentices.
apparently my family feels that im one too.
whenever they need someone to hide something they tell me,
simply because i do it without asking questions then keep my mouth shut.

-mission impossible theme song-
*hops around with a magnifying glass*

im suddenly excited.
about meditation.
kim will get what i mean. (:
i want to do it tomorrow.
and im hungry now.

my brain is overloading already.
its like i keep being happy,
suddenly sad then angry
then okay, then betrayed,
then regretful, then now i feel like as if i dont care anymore.
LOL.

valentines day is coming and i have no valentine.
which is... normal. ._. LOL.
i think i shall make flowers and give my friends or something.
and then stuff myself with chocolates.
because i love chocolates.

my sister and mother are talking as if they had some kinda,
throat operation?
funny. :D
i feel like karate-chopping the phone book,
because it only gives house numbers.

its about time i started to let go.

soft toy rose

2010-02-10T18:36:00.002+08:00

would i give anything to go back and fix it right...
but unfortunately there's no time machine in this world.
when there is,
i would like to go and try.

its so hard to move.
its like standing on chewing gum on train tracks.
i want to move, i have to move.
one week isnt enough for me.
but i cant really hold that much longer or its gonna crush me.

going through every bit reminds me of a feeling,
i once had,
i once lost.
happy and yet sad at the same time.
the feel of it, is like better then any gift in the world,
any place any time.

i keep thinking of it,
my mind is starting to move so slow.
when kim asked me if i wanted nuggets,
i had to take 10 seconds to remember what were nuggets.

i am not sad because i dont have it,
im sad because i ended it.
and thats what destroyed it.

this world isnt even real anymore.
i thought family members were the people who never lied to you.
and yet i just found out so many secrets.
that i thought would never even exist throughout my life.
i thought i was the lucky one,
never with huge issues.
and yet i found out even this sort of things could happen.
if you could hide something like that,
who knows what your whole family is hiding from you?
trust no one.
thats what i learnt.
but how can you survive like that.
fourteen years of my life,
i thought i was born
in a happy family.
i was wrong.
everybody is a fake.
i dont even know what is true and what is false anymore.

and i threw away what i need the most now.
comfort, love, happiness.

i was happy,
just a few weeks back.
then it suddenly hit me.
like a huge rock.
then i realised,
what i had done,
what i had lost.
what a stupid STUPID idiot i am.

and there's really no point calling myself stupid anymore,
because its already done.
its about time i moved on.

i closed my eyes,
and i realise i could remember every detail,
picture every detail,
feel every detail once again.
i didn't even know there was so many.
im not throwing it away,
im just locking it up from monday onwards,
because i just cant afford to be crushed everytime i hear or see it.

i can close my eyes, picture it,
and when i open them,
i have tears of joy flowing down my face.
and i dont even regret that it happened,
because from what i see,
its probably the best thing that has ever happened to me.

there's some things in life you just can't forget,
and i will remember this till i die.

2010-02-06T22:58:00.003+08:00

sec 3 camp was just awesome.
i dont know how else to put it.
i slept straight 5 hours when i came home.
MY BED MY TOILET OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

our raft died,
i had to pull it across the lake from one end to another.
but we won!
HAHAHAHAHHAA.

ohmygod playing drums and shouting with 3/1 is so fun.
campfire was awesome.
flying fox was awesome,
jungle trek was awesome, the night sky is awesome.
eating together was awesome,
mud bath and jetty jump was awesome.
and i shouted "i love ******" LOL.
and weiheng kept going round and round.

and the funniest part is like the bridge.
try to act man,
end up holding the rope with both hands with eyes shut,
screaming "SIJIE SIJIE SIJIE SIJIE"
today was "PEIKAI PEIKAI PEIKAI"
and this performance was nicely shown by the one and only ng junjie. (:
ok i was laughing like crazy.
and the guys in my class use sunblock.
my star gazing was spoilt man.
because i had to face junjie and liana.
and they were both... being very er ...
anyway i started throwing rocks as far as i could because i was getting real bored.
which then i came to realise i had been throwing everything at peikai. :/
looks like it didnt go very far. ._.

during meal times i actually entertain andy jihui and benjamin,
by making a fool of myself.
and andy has come to a conclusion that im scared of spiders.
and that one was so effing big can.
its funny to see people chiong for drinks. :D
i didnt even use my plate.
its so clean.
and i hate the toilet.
theres like no doors.
and we had to clean it. asudfcbashorinhaweul. >:(
and we had our tent collapsing on us for two nights.
i had to sleep sitting down with my arms wrapped around my knees.
woke up walking like some person with spinal injury.
i wondering who was that person who was snoring so damn loud.
i slept 2 hours ):
someone had seizure before campfire. :O

for some reason no one got bitten by leeches.
which is awesome once again.
i have so many marks all over myself.
i was so dreading the bus ride today,
until weiheng asked to sit with me.
and that made my day,
because i was so dreading to sit with jason goh.
and weiheng is a lifesaver.
wheeeee~ so kind. (:

and before that i saw kim in the other bus.
and up till now i am wondering what was ashlie trying to tell me.
and jianye was in front. i was so happy. :D
i duno lah.
that whole part made my day too.
except for the later part where people started taking pictures.
ohmygod i hope no one posts it. ><

took so long to go back to singapore.
and now all i can think about is miss lim's a-maths test.
noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~

2010-02-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

Time: 10.19pm
Mood: Neutral
Music: Fairly Odd Parents Theme Song

i was first to finish physics test today.
i dont know why
just scribbled through it then kept my stuff.
probably got everything wrong.
but then whats new. -.-

i just came back from northpoint.
look like some mad person running through basement one.
everybody going out i chionging in.
anyway mission complete. :D

modern dance tomorrow.
i hate tuesdays.
i havent finish chem
and i havent started poa.
and i honestly dont care.
because i dont know how to do poa,
and i left my chem book in school.
ahh >:(
mdm jo is going to fire me as chem rep one day.

okay camp in 3 days!!!
got my pills at doctor just. HAHAHAHA.
thank god. i would die if i didnt.

i havent started packing yet.
and everyone else has.

fashion statement to girls,
wearing a ten dollar shirt,
and fbt of whatever colour
with handphone strap around neck,
just shows that you have no fashion sense,
like that wear is to SLEEP.

Am test is end of january.
no piano this week.
gong xi fa cai to my sec 3 camp.
i wondering if i will even fail my piano exam.
LOL.

my hair seems longer.
GOOOOOOOOD.
bout time too.
nabil just said to meet mr chong at 3 pm tomorrow.
im actually excited about that. hahahaha.
time to sleep.
i took more then 40 minutes to post this. :D

buhbye!

2010-01-31T14:21:00.003+08:00

Time: 2.21pm
Mood: Happy
Music: I Know You Want Me - Pitbull

i just remembered why i decided to lock my blog in the first place.
ah who cares.
im getting happier each day.
things are finally working out.
72 hours on going.
not bad.

im actually excited for lifeguard training later.
idk why.
nicholas goh out of the blue started talking to me just now.
people only talk to me cos they really
really
really desperate,
no one else to talk to,
then come to me. -.-

okayy.
i wanna see resort world.
who wanna come? (:
universal studios $66 per ticket.
im so not going this year.
im trying to push my mother to work there
so i can go in for free. LOL.
not working. ._.

i feel like watching transformers again.
i dont even know where are all the dvds.
probably in some random box at my grandmother's house.

WHOOO
sec 3 camp in 4 days.
im excited.
kim is freaking out about leeches.
hah.
theyre not that bad lah.
im just scared about infection thats all.

i actually wrote down all the important dates to remember this year,
and up next would of course be sec 3 camp.

im so HAPPPYYYYYYYYY.
ohmygod,
im actually going hysterical.
long time since i felt like that.
like primary school.
good days. (:

haipaitianxin - ep13 tomorrow,
i cant wait.
last episode somemore.

im seriously getting mad.
i feel like swinging on the fan on my celing.
going round and round and round.
you spin my head right round right round~

whenever you get in a relationship problem,
just say the 3 words you know everyone wants to hear.
I...
was wrong. (:

2010-01-30T19:16:00.001+08:00

Time: 7.24pm
Mood: Satisfied
Music: Bring Me To Life - Evanescence

Singapore Flyer.
not as bad as i thought it would be. :D:D:D

alright man.
class 3/9.
some of it. ._.
the rest stuck in 7/11
3/9 isnt that bad after all.
i got awesome friends. :D
like haiqal and haiqal. LOL.
both my table buddies.

ahhh i just cant wait for the weekend.
havent done my homework.
haipaitianxin channel 56!

everytime i see his face i not happy. -.-
because it makes me so sad.
and hopeful at the same time.
but still sad.
i also not the type to fight for this.
ohmygod no chance alrd. D:
but good also lah.
nothing to worry about.

my life is getting better right now.
for once. (:

hai pai tian xin episode 13 finished! (:
wonderful.

one down, 12 to go.
finally senior resuscitation is over.
PASSED! WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO. yeah baby!!!~
i got a job at sentosa triathlon lifeguard!!! $10/hour
HAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA.
free shirts, free milo, free lunch,
what could be better.

today was kinda bad.
i still cannot get used to it.
somehow no matter how many times,
you still wont like it.
im actually counting,
5 or 6 times.
im probably the worse 14 year old girl in the world.
no one could get this bad.

i LOVE BEN10! and teen titans.
i wonder why no one else does.
i mean its actually kinds nice.
their jokes arent lame. (:

next up would be piano exam.
i hope i pass.
i wayyyyyy behind.

my sister threw my blanket on the floor cos i chased her out. >:(

2010-01-18T16:52:00.002+08:00

life is passing so fast now.

nothing is real in this world.
maybe God was bored he decided to make a toy set for himself.
i dont blame him.

nobody mean what they say
even your own father.

dan ni yao ni jiu xiang yao de ren zai ni shen bian,
na ge ren hui xiao shi,
hao xiang huo zai yu xia,
yong yuan bu neng ba ta zhao hui lai.

i probably beat myself up for losing the chance.
but thank myself that i ended it too.

theres really no such thing as love that last forever on Earth.
neither does it exsist at all.

2010-01-13T18:55:00.002+08:00

everytime after i watch hai pai tian xin i will post.
sad. as always.

miss lim didnt come today.
i dont know if thats a good or bad thing.
i keep forgetting to ask the class to copy science,
cos theres no time.
mdm jo is going to scream at me tomorrow.

anyway since im back,
i eating on the sofa with the blue chair as my table.
mutton's joke on monday was funny.
i missed my popping class D:
to do chemistry homework properly.
but thats more important.

today was weird.
when i was going to english class,
i found kelvin singing barbie world,
and george dancing to sorry sorry.
weiheng taught me maths. awesome.
i got a mouth from kelvin. LOL.

pasted up modern dance posters.
did photo collage.

im waiting for it to happen.

2010-01-04T18:33:00.002+08:00

just finished hai pai tian xin.
its so sad.
3 episodes to go.

anyway first day if school and i already did something wrong.
im gonna get alot of scolding tomorrow.
all my forms are still under my table.
and my modern dance stuff are still in woodlands.
not that i can do anything.
teacher donno fly where.

hip hop later.
and apparently thanks to the construction just now,
i ended up sleeping on the doorstep.

i still havent bought my books.

2009-12-29T09:18:00.003+08:00

i just realised i stare at people alot.
maybe because they have bad fashion sense.

annabelle woke at 4am screaming last night.
im never going to get used to this.
luckily they have alot of movies.
or i will die.

aerospace electronics is 14 points at ngee ann poly. hahhhhh.

hai pai tian xin is out on demand tv. lol.
episode 9 was okay lah.
its gonna take her forever to find out that hes da lang.
and the stupid christina.
now i have to wait another week.

mr lim didnt book the test this coming sunday.
and thats a relief.
because nothing is in my head yet.
at least i will see emily on the test day.

mr lim tested us on the cpr steps,
and if we were wrong he threw his watch at us.
it ended up quite funny lah,
after AM, i probably can stop swimming,
cos i gotta wait another year for distinction and pool life guard.
which means im stuck with jasper and eugene.

at least now i got something to look forward to every evening.
yesterday was tiring.
today will be fun, its jkpop baby!

2009-12-24T13:38:00.003+08:00

dragon is hopping on me now. :D
sausage dog!

anyway we did jkpop on tuesday.
sorry sorry is the offcial warm up dance.
awesome. (:
yesterday was popping and locking,
my shoulders are so sore now.
and my triceps are twisted.

my sister is watching the television,
so now im studying part 1/21 of senior resuscitation,
anatomy and physiology.
when shes done i will watch transformers again.
i need action.
apparently dark knight didnt have much of that.
i just love the parts where joker comes out.
it hilarious.
and im the only one who thinks so.

christmas party tonight.
everybody is busy cooking now.
and dragon is digging bones from the dustbin,
and burying them under the sofa.

my future has been set for me,
go np, areospace technology
i honestly prefer electronics.
then join NRA.
my sister is already working on my dpa folder for me.
which is... good? i think.

i miss northoaks.
i havent bought my books.

2009-12-21T17:31:00.002+08:00

i feel like i am living in a farm.
its either the dog or the chicken who wakes me up.

just finished hai pai tian xin episode 8.
spent my time just now watching the first transformers movie.
realised it was funny.

i have finally got everything done.
i even just filled up the form.
handing it up tomorrow.

i think people who talk emo or about complicated life,
and what unbreakable love crap,
have no life.
and guys, who look at chiobu all day,
or go looking for girlfriends,
also have no life.
and people who go crazy over idols,
singers actors whatsoever,
are just as dumb.

aerospace technology.
nice.

2009-12-15T14:41:00.005+08:00

i havent read anyone's blog in months.

nowadays im lazy to on com,
charge my phone,
reply messages,
talk on the phone,
and so on.
it a good thing anyway. hah.

two broken fingers,
glass scratches,
two leg bandages,
and bone reconstruction
operation over.

i've been thinking how i should construct my behaviour next year.
i actually i figured out something.
i think that idea is not bad.
although its probably gonna make some people unhappy.
not that those people are important.

anyway wood is done,
with a semi gloss,
because full gloss is just like the dance studio.
marble is done with a full wax.
its smooth.
my family were all sleeping on the floor.
we got the measurment wrong for the wiring.
and probably gonna have to redo it.

i have been spending my time exploring shopping centres,
tampanies mall century square and tampanies one.
not like theres much.
me and my sis practically finished exploring all 3,
in like 2 and a half hours.

went jurong point yesterday.
awesome. LOL.
i can spend a whole day there if i had money.
which i dont,
so thats out of the question.
before that we went white sands in pasir ris,
and some shopping centre in simei.

im getting used to tampanies now.
and anyway its quite convenient.
at least from where i am.
but im bored.
came back yesterday,
to find jiejie meiyan and korkor kelvin,
dying their hair pink.
and annabelle screaming wildly.
she sticks to my sister like glue.

which is good,
cos i dont know how to entertain kids.
i usually end up making them cry in the end.

thats it for now i guess.
im so bored now,
but i dont want entertainment from anyone.
i shall find ways to occupy myself.

hai pai tian xin ep 6 was a mess -.-
only toilet bowl part nice.
aft watching like 4, 5, and 7,
6 is horrible.

i think i shall go watch a movie now.

2009-12-08T09:45:00.002+08:00

watching hai pai tian xin now.
totally forgot to watch it on monday.

sitting on a dining table,
with korkor kelvin and jiejie meiyan
wasnt what i thought i would be doing this holidays.
i miss my parents,
for no reason at all.

im losing it.
i actually slash my sis with scissors yesterday back in northoaks.
my father starting blasting at me.
and as usual i kepy quiet.
everytime im angry everything comes out wrong.

if i were to go crazy over this particular thing,
i would feel like some typical american teenager.
but i honestly love it.
i want it.
i wish i had it.
its probably the thing i want most now.
and to go over it i will feel empty headed

2009-12-04T21:10:00.001+08:00

new house new school new people new family new surroundings.

*smiles*
i wish i had a remote control.

im not beaten till i quit.

2009-12-01T21:05:00.001+08:00

JUBEAT is sooo cool can. :D
gonna play with gerald,

sorry eugene.

ahh i miss my house. T.T

2009-11-29T14:50:00.000+08:00

Finally.

2009-11-24T21:20:00.004+08:00

phineas and ferb is awesome.
hai pai tian xin take very long to come leh. D:
i cant wait for the next one omg.

anyway today wasnt that bad.
my sis made me hard boiled egg for breakfast,
took me to mos burger for lunch. :D
then we went swimming.
saw chi yao again.
i just remembered i promised sean to update my facebook.
and apparently hes gonna teach me how to fly! HAH.

mark has H1N1,
there goes my guitar lessons.
i shall go visit him tomorrow anyway.
piano is on thursday this week.
i think i shall practise 3 hours tomorrow.

6 days left.
no one would notice anyway.

2009-11-22T22:21:00.004+08:00

sometimes i feel as if im not born in the right family.

i thought she was protecting me.
i thought she meant well.
i thought maybe,
maybe if i just went with it for once,
maybe there will be a good outcome.
i knew it.
i knew it the whole time,
but i just didnt want to believe it.
i just hoped everyday,
that maybe one day, things would be different.

i know there are no 100% perfect humans in this world,
there are only more then 50% good ones.
but why is it,
that those around me,
are all the same.
why is it,
that all of them are like that.
and why is it,
that i always feel i have no one to turn to,
when i have so many friends!
and why is it,
that the world is like that to me,
when its happening to no one else i know!

i dont care,
even if,
i live in four white walls with a carpet.
if im happy everyday,
and all of my family is happy everyday,
and i at least,
get to show,
that i remember my friends birthday,
or even care about it!

fine,
you say you dont love me.
im okay with that.
dont love then keep me in the house for what!

2009-11-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMBERLY MARIA BRACKEN.

okay. today wasnt very good.
couldnt find my dare group.
duno they fly until where D:
i need to buy a jacket.
my mother got irritated for no reason again.

haha. my statements were proved this evening.
theyre really all a bunch of jerks.
not friends at all.
just attention seekers.
bastards.
everybody is the same -.-

i-see ceram. ;DDD

2009-11-20T22:39:00.003+08:00

i dont want anybody to pity me,
or ask me to cheer up whatsoever,
because to me it just seems as if you wanna bribe me,
into telling me youre a nice person.
honestly i dont give a shit whether youre nice or not.

anyway my sister was kind enough,
to take my to seoul garden today.
it made me happpyy. (:
and then, her friend arrived.
went home for piano.
wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.
although my fingering is
horrible
terrible
vegetable.

okay tomorrow theres dare. HAHAHAH.
ohmygod im excited.
im scared of sitting in the car when my mother drives.
so im praying hard my father is free tomorrow.
or will beg for train.

people really dont mean what they say. -.-
all rubbish.
but then again,
i really getting used to this.

2009-11-19T19:52:00.005+08:00

dance camp was just simply awesome.
i dont know how else to put it.
i worked so hard on choreo with zoey and bianca,
and overall im proud of myself.

since monday besides dance camp,
nothing good has happened to me.
from scolding to not being welcomed home,
to not getting the choice i want,
to missing the birthday party i promised kim to go to,
to my mother over reacting over my friends,
to my father over reacting over transferring school again,
just because i didnt get into double science.

but i guess combine isnt all that bad.
besides, watching 2012 today with my sis,
totally made my day.
while gazing at prototype original.
and eating lunch out.

so far im controlling myself well,
not arguing and whatsoever.
i dont communicate with my parents unless i have to.
now they think something is wrong with me.
that dance camp didnt go well or something.
not that they care.
i didnt even get a hi when i came back.
in fact,
they seemed quite unhappy to see me.

people are getting on my nerves.
i seem to get very irritated easily.
my mother,
always to scared to admit shes wrong,
my father,
according to himself,
is never wrong.
so ultimately,
i am always wrong.

but its okay,
even i have no proper family,
no freedom,
no money,
no happiness,
and almost no more friends,

at least i still got some left who really cares,
although things never turn out the way i think they do.
but i have a home,
a room, a bed, food.
and no missing limbs.
im the luckiest girl in the world. (:

i hope that one day in my life,
i wake up,
and for once,
everything is perfect.

2009-11-16T19:50:00.002+08:00

alot of people is asking where did my links and cbox go,
i just dont want it there.
you may unlink me if you want, its up to you,
but if you dont, youre wonderful. hahaha.

this morning was.. well superior.
my father blasted at me in front of anna.
anyway today's dance was fine i guess.
me and zoey are having a hard time communicating with 2 of the sec 1s.

well i decided,
to change once and for all,
change my choice of friends,
my attitude,
and behavior.
from now on, i shall listen to whatever my parents say.
they say what, i do what.
if im wrong, then im wrong.
i wont argue anymore.
they ask my practice piano, i practice.
they dont ask me, i also practice.
they say dont go out,
then maybe i will stop the begging.

but at the same time,
im gonna stop cracking up.
i will talk only when im supposed to,
not more than that.
i will not tell jokes anymore,
and interact less.
and no chatting.
i want to be serious.
i shall do my last job on conveying two messages. (:

even if i become some goody two shoes,
and people start to think im nerd and dislike me,
i dont really care.
maybe this shows who your real friends are.
im so glad theres a overnight stay tomorrow.
it will give me time to think,
on what to do when i get home.

im gonna get a great lashing from my dad when he gets home.
i will probably agree with everything he says.
he says im immature,
then so be it.
i shall tell myself to learn to be more mature.
i realise those people really werent who i thought they were,

and, normal parents,
wouldnt want their child to suffer,
so ultimately, if i do whatever they say,
i wouldnt suffer.
i usually dont do the things basically because i dont want to.
so now,
maybe it might do me some good.
live my life without regrets.

if my parents die one day,
i dont want to end up telling myself,
"the last thing you did was to make them unhappy"

2009-11-15T18:48:00.002+08:00

What is kindness?
Answer: Er... see uncle selling tissue paper then buy from him lor.

today was faith factor.
the thing was a toy eel.
the contestants were blindfolded.

Question: So what do you think it is?
Contestant 1: a solid horfun
Contestant2: a manufactured agar agar
Contestant 3: stuffed pig intestine.
LOLL

alright im going danz people next week officially.
surfing is canceled thanks to the renovation.
the whole of December i've got no where to stay.
i either stay at my uncle's house in casablanka,
or i randomly go rent some house for a month.
or a hotel.

anyway going out with emily and yuting to orchard!!
hah yes. i feel good about that.
well the surprise is becoming a crash.
im not surprised,
thinks usually don't go the way i plan it.
this is a wonderful example.

spotlight disease can REALLY spread.
expected. nowadays everyone is becoming like that.
i feel like going to the beach,
with just one person,
someone real close,
go there chui feng and talk. LOL.

well i still got shooting lessons to come i guess.
so its not that bad.
my mother is childish,
got angry just because i jerked my head away.
took pictures of the taxi,
have to download and send to my father.

i have a brilliant father.

2009-11-14T19:58:00.002+08:00

This is why i insist on taking public transport.

business seminar in the morning.
afternoon went dare at suntec,
was late, car accident number 3. -.-
refer to statement above.
i think i should confiscate my mother's driving license.
after that bought a bag at marina,
my family was not in a good mood,
which meant my mood was crushed too.

well,
went admiralty for dinner,
i wanted to take bus,
my sis insisted on walking.
and the result,
i saw satan.

some people say things,
and yet they dont mean it at all.
which means,
act nice, act friendly,
act popular, act cool.
and best of all,
they were supposed to be my good friends.
i take things very seriously,
and i believe almost everything someone tells me.
i fall for alot of lies, alot of acts,
and in the end, i suffer.

but i think,
the problem is on me and not them.
i shouldnt try to talk to people so much,
and get to know them more.
i should stop being so kpo,
and ask so many questions,
and most of all,
i should stop believing everything,
because this is the world.
this is reality,
and in reality, nobody is your friend except God.

and this person,
must have everything i have,
i show her this,
she go and get it,
i go into this,
she wants to go in too,
i have this,
she must get one too.
i got this hair,
she must have the same hair.

and i HATE it,
when someone wants to have or do the same thing as me,
because when they get it,
or do it,
i no longer have to mood to have/do whatever it is anymore.
fuck the earth,
i dont mind exploding in outer space.

2009-11-13T19:44:00.001+08:00

just finished piano class.
im sooo tired.
the business seminar was... okay i suppose.
now i need to get a suit for females. -.-
later round two until 11pm. ahh D;
wth is this

2009-11-10T10:43:00.002+08:00

FedEx just came to my house. LOL.
people with sunglasses. cool man.

my father wants me to go business seminars with him,
for friday, saturday and sunday,
each lasts for 12 hours. T.T
10am-10pm. wthwthwth.
when i go dance camp,
my mind will probably be filled with financial,
and accounting bla bla bla. -.-
im probably gonna be the only 14 year old going there.
and my father still say,
"once the 3 days are over, i expect you to start you own business,
not work for other people."
hello? im still 14! start what business!
sell lemonade ah?

danzpeople is awesome. ;D
my father said he would take me surfing and shooting next month,
finally. ._.
shooting i go because he wants to,
but surfing will be awesome.
i hope i hope, i will get wipeout alot. LOL.
still got one more art thing somewhere,
3 year course. wth o.o
which means,
im really starting to fill up my holidays.
which is gooood!
i dont miss my swimming training. :D
having 5 coaches shouting at you from street level isnt my thing. :/
plus going back and forth at least 120 times everyday.

anyway i had this dream last night,
which reminded me,
kelvin said, last time i told him to stop,
now its his turn to tell me.
and i still say it was okay, doesnt matter.
last night i pictured this, um
scene, that felt so real.
i never felt so sad in my sleep before.
but then again,
it was a dream, but who knows.
i guess its time to let go.

Patience is needed for reading

2009-11-09T12:31:00.004+08:00

be prepared.... for the worst.

kimberly says:
*you all still conferencing?
clarissa says:
*stopped like
*an hour ago
kimberly says:
*chey LOL
*i wanted to join
*i am bored
clarissa says:
*everybody off liao
kimberly says:
*LOL vivian's still hereeeee.
*oh im so bored now
*really
*im gonna die soon
*are you doing anything tmr.
*LOL
*i needa find something to do
*i don't wanna waste away my holidays hahahaha.
*i've waited for this day
*for so long
*i mean
*for this holiday for so long.
*now i'm just typing alot cuz i like to see the letters come out
*LOLLLLL.
*it looks interesting from the side.
*so anw i bought a shirt today.
*it's baggy
*LOL
*so i bought a baggy shirt today
*and i saw chua chua too.
*and his kids
*his son is quite cute LOL.
*it's about time you replied though.
*hello
*earth to clarissa.
*Wait i shall try speaking properly.
*Hello , Earth to Clarissa.
*It's about time you started replying .
*Now i feel as though i'm talking to myself.
*Hello ?
*Are you there?
*I'm so incredibly bored now.
*I've resorted to talking to myself.
*You're probably not even reading this but I really am very bored.
*Hello , You're still not there?
*I think you're just ignoring me now.
*I don't like you.
*You should reply by now.
*What are you doing?
*Are you playing Dota?
*Are you playing Maplestory?
*What are you doing?
*You should reply you know , because now my neck hurts from reading all this sideways.
*However, the words come out pretty cool so it still looks nice.
*It's fun typing with such proper grammar, we should do it more often.
clarissa says:
*YOURE LIKE ELLSON
kimberly says:
*No wait, I should do it more often.
clarissa says:
*GIVE ME TEN PARAGRAPH
*HELLOH
*I NEVER SEE SOMEONE TYPE SO MUCH IN A ROW BEFORE
kimberly says:
*Laugh out loud.
*Well technically i'm just bored.
*I'm not going on about how sad my life is also.
*And you replied.
*Thank goodness, i was starting to get bored tlaking to myself.
*This is also why i finish compositions early , as i always have things to say.
*Resulting in the ten paragraphs of crap as seen above.
*I'm so bored now.
*What are you doing?
*Are you playing Dota?
clarissa says:
*stop talking so fast
*stoppit
kimberly says:
*Are you playing Maple?
clarissa says:
*oi
*kimberly maria bracken
kimberly says:
*Why?
*This is so fun.
*I am extremely bored too.
clarissa says:
*im so gonna post this conver
kimberly says:
*This increases typing skills, don't you agree?
clarissa says:
*-.-
kimberly says:
*You should try it.
*I'm so bored now.
*That's why i'm typing so hysterically/.
*OH MY GOD.
*THAT WAS A TYPO.
*WE MUST FIX IT!
*H
*Y
*S
*T
*E
*R
*I
*C
*A
*L
*L
*Y
*.
*Yes, that's better.
*Now the sentence is fixed, i feel relieved.
*Are you still going to post this?
*You shouldn't , people will get bored with the first half , no?
*What are you doing?
*Why aren't you replying.
*It's about time you replied.
*What could you possibly be doing at 10:44 PM at night.
clarissa says:
*i wuold, if you weren't going on and on.
kimberly says:
*What are you doing?
clarissa says:
*would*
kimberly says:
*Are you playing Dota?
*Are you playing Maplestory?
*Or are you just as bored as me ?
*I ask you so many questions.
*You should answer some.
clarissa says:
*no im not bored
kimberly says:
*What are you doing?
clarissa says:
*shhh
*-.-
kimberly says:
*Oh then what are you doing.
*Sorry , i'm extremely bored now.
*And there's nobody else to terrorize.
*So yes, i'm so sorry .
*However, i sadly must say that i have to do this to you.
*So , how you been.
*How's life for you?
*Has it been like a roller coaster?
*I wonder how life has been for you.
*You should update me about how you've been doing.
*I've been worried sick.
*I'm at home all day worrying about how you've been .
*Do you not understand my pain?
clarissa says:
*oh shuddup
kimberly says:
*Give me awhile more.
*I'm not done yet.
*I still like to hear the typing sound over and over again.
clarissa says:
*i dont care if youre done.
kimberly says:
*I like to watch the letters slowly flow out.
*It's beautiful at some angles.
*It really is.
*You should try typing and looking at it from different angles.
*So what are you doing now.
*Are you play Dota?
*OH NO
*THAT WAS A GRAMMAR MISTAKE!
*WE MUST FIX IT!
*Are you playing Dota?
*Okay, fixed.
*Okay where was I ?
*Oh right,
*Are you playing Maple?
*I doubt you rae.
*OH NO!
*THAT WAS A TYPO!!!
clarissa says:
*-.-
kimberly says:
*WE MUST FIX IT AGAIN.
*a
*r
*e
clarissa says:
*KIMBERLY MARIA BRACKEN
kimberly says:
*.
*All done.
*Oh my fingers are so cold.
*So cold due to the air conditioner
*That is currently blowing out cold air.
*The cold air then sinks due to convection.
*And thus, my hands are cold.
*So very cold due to the cold air from the air conditioner that's blowing out cold air.
clarissa says:
*you talking to me or yourself?
kimberly says:
*I'm talking to both.
*You aren't replying.
*Why are you not replying?
*Am i being too pushy?
*Are we over?
*After all we've been through ?
*You reject me so harshly?
*I'm trying my very best to communicate with you here and you're just ignoring me like that?
*I'm crushed.
*My heart has just shattered into a million pieces.
*I feel so cold inside.
*I just can't believe you did this to me.
clarissa says:
*wth
*LOL.
kimberly says:
*After five years, everything we did together.
clarissa says:
*shuddup lah you
kimberly says:
*Have you forgotten it all?
*All the hardship , pain , laughter.
*Everything.
*And this is how you repay me?
clarissa says:
*LOL.
kimberly says:
*By treating me like this?
*You should go for an attitude check young lady.
clarissa says:
*youre very noisy you know
kimberly says:
*I don't deserve this kind of treatment from you.
*Don't test my patience young lady.
*I've not been very strict with you.
clarissa says:
*LOL!
kimberly says:
*As i see you're trying your very best to make this partnership work between us, i try not to be strict with you.
*However you have crossed the line today,
*On this faithful day.
*8th November.
*2009 .
*Sunday.
*10:54 PM .
*My heart broke into pieces for you.
clarissa says:
*bullshit lah you. QUIET.
kimberly says:
*See , you're getting from bad to worse.
*I thought i've taught you well.
*Apparently , my teachings weren't good enough.
clarissa says:
*dont become like my mother
kimberly says:
*I believe you will excel in the future, will my teachings in your head.
*You shall succeed!
*I believe you can fly!
*I believe you can touch the sky!
clarissa says:
*-.-
kimberly says:
*I think about it every night and day!
*I think about how to make you better person!
*Clarissa, you are a good kid.
*However, you still need to undergo some lessons from me.
*So i can pass now my elderly wisdom.
*And pass it to the younger generations.
*So i can rest in peace when i go away.
*Please treasure these teachings that i shall give you .
*Treasure the wisdom that i will pass down to you.
*And pass them down to your younger generations.
*While i shall pass away peacefully.
clarissa says:
*ok now youre just behaving like a monk
kimberly says:
*Knowing that i have passed down my wisdom to my grandchildren .
*I'm training.
*You shall become a monk too.
*Once i train you , young one.
*You will have all my wisdom.
*And you shall succeed!
*You will be a monk , with hair.
clarissa says:
*I WILL NOT BE AMONK
kimberly says:
*and you will be a fashionable monk, because i taught you well.
*You will have all my wisdom.
*And you shall succeed!
*You will be a monk , with hair.
clarissa says:
*I WILL NOT BE AMONK
kimberly says:
*and you will be a fashionable monk, because i taught you well.
*And i passed down my wisdom.
*You shall be a monk , because i have passed down my wisdom.
clarissa says:
*monks have no fashion
kimberly says:
*My elderly wisdom must be cherished.
*You will be a monk with fashion.
clarissa says:
*-.-
kimberly says:
*Trust me , one day , you shall be the best monk in the world.
clarissa says:
*when i become an assasin
*i shall murder you first
kimberly says:
*and go to the grammys for the best monk .
*Then when you get the best monk award.
clarissa says:
*perhaps maybe i shall have some peace
kimberly says:
*You must thank me
clarissa says:
*and youre the monk
*you should be the peaceful one
kimberly says:
*As it was i , that passed down my elderly wisdom
*To you , young one.
*And you will recieve that award, with pride.
*Knowing that it was I , that taught you so well.
*It was my teachings that enabled you to recieve such a prestigious award.
*As you become elderly, you will then pass your elderly wisdom to the younger generations.
*Then we shall meet in Heaven.
*And i shall pass down more wisdom to you.
*And we can recieve grammys for the best monk and her diciple.
*then we shall walk down the red carpet
*Proudly, knowing that it was my wisdom that led us to this wonderful day.
*The End.
*The moral of the story is,
clarissa says:
*nooooooo
kimberly says:
*Kimberly's wisdom, will make Clarissa a monk with wisdom.
clarissa says:
*for the last time,
*IM NOT GOING TO BE A MONK
kimberly says:
*This concludes that I , Kimberly Maria Bracken, Daughter of Oliver Bernard Bracken and Ylva Maria Kovacs, Made Clarissa a better monk , due to her unending guidance and wisdom.
clarissa says:
*OI
kimberly says:
*Clarissa Cheon Wai Si shall be the best monk in the history of monks, apart from her master you passed down her elderly wisdom.
*The End.
*OH NO!
*THAT WAS A TYPO!
*WE MUST FIX IT !
*Apart from her master who passed down her elderly wisdom.
*Okay , fixed.
*Wasn't that story just magnificent.
*I felt enlightened just writing it.
*I think i shall be a writer, and pass down my wisdom to younger generations.
clarissa says:
*no it was horrible
kimberly says:
*At the age of 144 , i believe that my elderly wisdom must be passed down.
clarissa says:
*people will sleep while reading your books
kimberly says:
*Or else there will not be another awesome person with such wisdom as kimberly herself.
*-5 years later-
*Kimberly has died.
*Clarissa cries her guts out.
clarissa says:
*no thank you i dont want to her what happens -.-
kimberly says:
*We all believe she was such a good person.
*Such wisdom could not be passed down anymore.
*Kimberly's amazing book reached it's one thousandth page.
clarissa says:
*OK NOW YOU HAVE CROSSED THE LINE
kimberly says:
*LOL.

2009-11-08T18:41:00.002+08:00

after a few more days,
im gonna start MIA-ing.
i shall do some useful things,
instead of sitting in front of the comp so often.
i hang out more with DJs :D
and then chiong all my breakdance and hiphop classes,
andandand start work. (:

and when i get money,
im gonna buy a new phone,
new shoes, bla bla bla.
kelvin told me ask my dad hire him also, LOL.
anyway my dad got good impression of him. (Y)
from what i said,
kelvin you should thank me.

but not cfm yet,
i might end up doing something stupid. -.-
anyway, today morning was awesome,
glad i was forced to go,
(so you think singapore go talent LAH~)
nicenice talent show,
MICHAEL JACKSON and ELVIS PRESLEY. LOLOL.

when the devil knows
that you know
that you know
that you know
that he knows
that you know,
then youre safe. (:

2009-11-07T21:57:00.004+08:00

LOL

its 9.57pm!
just came back half an hour ago.
woke up early,
was supposed to go christ church to support the tchouckball,
but i woke up the time it ended.
ohmygod D:
then ate lunch, DGL called to say its at 1 not 1.50,
so started running around like a mad person.
reached at 1.20, was super late.
met gabrielle, daryl and jun wei,
then went to bustop, took 161?
then went botanical gardens,
crystal came later, with crystalbelle,
and then kailin and the other crystal.
then played rugby with the rest.
ohmygod my team almost win lah.
after four games, one game 5 rounds,
winner gets ice coke,
last round for 1st and second, 6-5
lose the team 1! nooo~
rachel is pro,
and so is jason.

me: eh up there got a squirell!
nicolei: no, thats a donkey
wenz: wow isnt it small.
*both starts acting like a squirell-donkey*
-.-

after that walked through the whole botanical gardens,
took us 45 minutes cos we got lost,
and i never felt so hot and tried in a long time,
then went to bukit timah road,
now my turn to get lost.
in the end found dominic,
who came with us to macs. :D
ate filet, scrambled through gabrielle's coupons. LOL.
aiyah only got rivervalley.
daryl did golden for his hair base, and green highlights,
ohmygod so cool.
then went to island creamery,
ate tehtarik ice cream,
ham and cheese ice cream,
chicken chilli ice cream. LOL.

started to go home at 7.30,
with gabrielle, daryl, dominic, jun wei, kailin and crystal.
walked to bus stop,
171 took super long to come,
we went mad halfway running like idiots. LOL.
the bus was very crowded,
and i got to sit!
reached newton mrt,
took mrt back with jun wei, dominic and daryl.
got this woman started talking to us. o.o
went down at admiralty with jun wei.
went back home, and here i am!

2009-11-06T11:53:00.004+08:00

a hilarious thing happened just now.
my father drove me to 637 there,
then on the way back,
got this good news,
i started dancing in the car,
and so,
my father started dancing too.
and then he let go of the steering wheel and pedal,
and we went all the way to the highway.
so we were both dancing and screaming.
it looked funny. LOL.

went home,
ate the cookies,
and then cleaned my room floor,
auntie cynthia came,
mark's gonna teach me guitar. (:
she and my mother went crazy. o.o
she was like"bye clarissa"

-1 hour later-

they were both sitting at the door,
talking and laughing.
the best way to irritate mark is to have anything same,
as his mother,
hair clothes shoes, ANYTHING.
LOL.
im trying to get michael to come riverside.
join basketball. (:
unforturnately,
michael is an expert spy. -.-
later he help my mother spy on me.
serial late comer.

going to anna's house later for lunch,
which is why i had to scrub the floor,
and make my bed before i go.
im gonna die at piano lesson later,
cos i didnt practise for 2 weeks. ahh D:

i suddenly lost my trust in everyone.
everybody is not just betrayers, also liars..
pretend to be so nice.
but what to do, they're all fakers.
anyway,
1st rule of an assasin,
trust no one.
so, im one step forward. (:

2009-11-05T20:48:00.003+08:00

300TH POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this is one of the best days ever. (:

first woke up at 8 by my sister,
to go eat breakfast with my family.
went 515 there,
ate, almost fell asleep on the table.
then went home.

lay on my parents bed beside my mother,
both of us were at the edge,
with our hair hanging down. :D
then after that changed my shirt,
went down to the bus stop to meet anna,
then kimberly,
went cold storage,
search for everything,
i didnt know buying groceries were so difficult. ._.
anyhow choose the eggs.

then went to kim's house,
and officially started making everything.
anna's cake look like shit can.
our cookies look so bian. -.-
but all are nice lah. (:
anna divided the stuff,
and i fell in love with kimberly's blanket.
(and pillow)

i went at 3,
to go do my hair,
she got 4 colours in her hair~
brown blue purple and black.
LOL i look ridiculous.
then she straightened my hair.
it looks rebonded now.
but it will go once i wash.
but thanks to the treatment,
im not allowed to wash for two days.
wtf, my fringe look like bangs.
but not that bad lah.
im gonna push it to the side. (:
and my hair is shorter T.T
went home,
tomorrow gotta choing theory and piano.

OHOH,
i left my cookies at the hairdresser's! D:

2009-11-04T10:21:00.003+08:00

i gotta postpone doing my hair tmr,
instead of today. D:
woots MCFLY,
shes got five colours in her hair~
im gonna look funny,
but who cares, im told that im weird.

AWESOMEEEE,
theres digital life today,
im gonna tear this one up,
and i forgot last week's one too,
so that make two of them.

my psp has no battery,
cant find the charger.
apparently im told to pack my wadrobe again.
dont want! :D
i told my sister i would buy her what she wanted,
if she scored at least 6 A1s
its possible,
but then again,
she super lazy,
since she alrd got in ngee ann poly. -.-

i have seriously nothing to do nowadays.
i realised how fucking horrible my blogskin looks,
in internet explorer. -.-
not that its really much of a difference,
but the font looks sick can.
mozilla firefox better.
brutal legend ftw. :D
i found that kelvin plays prototype too!
i want that cute ninja game. LOL.
i duno whats the name.
and then i want black shot.
i feel like barging into hmv and grab the whole section.
i like those games,
that use the gun,
tried it in the living room once with ps2.
funny. LOL.

i seriously need a new cpu,
this one is god damn slow. -.-
my audition skills are horrible,
went in cos junjie told me to,
played, SUPER LAG.
and i could hardly press anything.
and now, im just using mff,
and its also so slow! >:(

its raining heavily now.
i don't care - fall out boys,
the music video is funny. LOL.
ok i shall go tear my newspapers now -.-

2009-11-02T15:49:00.002+08:00

297th post.
supposed to meet anna and kim at 9,
but then cinema not open yet, changed to 10.
and then i couldnt get up so 10.15. LOL.

anyway still arrived late,
met them went to school,
pass the form,
and then miss tang happened to be there,
she started reading out our combinations.
wth lah. LOL.
then headed to cwp,
cinema was still closed,
so went popular first,
anna bought the envelope and paper.
i started pushing my face against the glass for that sony mp3 again.
i want it so badly~ D:
im getting orange!!! plus ONTO white headphones. YAY.

then went to library,
anna went to find her thailand book,
and i started writing Howie's letter.
i decorated the envelope, but in the end,
anna said use hers.
so okay lor.
after that, went back to cinema,
still closed, so sat there.
and then when it finally opened,
looked for someone who will help us buy,
jennifer's body tickets.
finally saw this couple,
who looked real nice,
and i had to push anna there,
she asked, i asked,
omg theyre so kind.
so bought two tickets,
and i started jumping up and down.

then headed to Howie's house.
then his maid say he not in, -.-
he said he move house to shw there,
so called shw,
shw say he know where but duno the block,
while waiting for shw, called gerald and marcus,
gerald da bu tong,
marcus duno where.
then shw brought us, TO THE EXACT SAME HOUSE. _|_
met marcus on the way,
he asked me to join a race with him on 21st,
hahah kim's birthday.
this time, Howie's grandfather also appear,
say he bballing.
called howie again,
he hung up on me twice! -.-
finally passed it to his grandfather,
then headed home,

ben lai only need 30 min,
in the end used 3 hours. -.-

2009-11-01T20:47:00.003+08:00

my occupation,
will be to kill people,
i wanna be the best known female assasin in the world.
i will be loyal, to the one who pays me most.

first person i kill,
that mgs girl,
second, i want double kill.
throw one stone kill two birds.
AHEM and ******
the mgs girl maybe im joking.
but AHEM, you better watch out.
i mean it when i say i want to kill you.
literally.
but now, im just fourteen,
too young to start mudering people.

i can throw you into jail now if i want,
so you watch it. -.-

ANYWAY.
training was different,
eugene emily and jasper didnt come.
then two new boys came, one 15 the other, 19.
the 15 one is cute. LOL.

i got two conversations to put here. LOL.
1st,
conversation between me and japser.

jasper: eh got new guy leh.
clarissa: really ah? describe him.
jasper: i duno how tell you lah,
but i went through everything with him.

ok first. when someone say 'went through everything'
= married got busy, had a family. blah blah blah.
LOL. cute lah!
yuting and betrick started laughing when i told them.

2nd,
conversation between my sister and godbrother. HAH.

clarinda: i wished you had gone ngee ann poly, at
least will have someone i know with me there.
mark: why? you want date me ah?
clarinda: ewww NO!

LOLOL. my sister practically freaked out.
anyway mark's in LOVEEEEE. HAHAHAHAHA.

okok i got a joke to tell you all. LOL.

theres this boy, with coordination problem.
so his mother told him,
if he could put both of his index fingers,
touching each other,
she could buy him and icecream.
the boy was very excited and practised it everyday.
then one day,
he managed to put both index fingers touching each other.
the mother was proud of him,
and immediately brought him out to get his icecream.
the boy holding his cream,
"PIAK"
smashed it onto his forehead.

GET IT?! LOL.
i know i very lame lah. but i nothing to do.
anyway this joke is easier to get when i do actions.
okay i shall stop here. byebye!

2009-10-30T13:22:00.002+08:00

today is the last day of school,
and apparently like kim said,
it wouldnt go well.

i never found my prediction ever so accurate,
until i got into band 5.
its depressing,
40% cos i did so badly,
60% im depressed about what punishment i am about to get,
if my parents knew i was the bottom 40,
i would die.

in my family, you dont really get much encouraging,
especially when youre sad.
they'ed just find you pathetic.
my sis appealed for an independent school,
as her sister im appealing for the next class. -.-

last day as 2/6, its really sad.
miss hesley and miss lee,
made us this two videos,
most people cried.
i didnt, but it was kinda sad.

then after school met hsiang wee,
had lunch with them.
and then called howie over,
tricked him we had jennifer's body tickets,
and now hes super mad. D:
im sooooooo sorry.
i shall make it up to you.
i just wanted the four of us to hang out,
that was the plan.

and then now, i just realised,
we have friends in our own school backstabbing us,
i guess it really is all about looks,
if they were really my friends,
they would keep out of this whole thing.

WELL, what to do?
you dont always get everything you want,
today is a sad day,
and thanks to my inconsideration,
i have plans to make and do.
in order to get back the friend,
who did so many things for me.

SMILE, and move on.

2009-10-29T15:13:00.004+08:00

tomorrow is the last day of school, thank god.
the next time everybody goes,
gonna see the guys in long pants! LOL.

anyway im going to die,
because i got cut by i rusted wire netting,
and my arm is bleeding,
plusplus, a snake bit me yesterday.
ALL PRAISE TO GOD.
have any last words?
bye.

anyway to vivian kim anna zh jiayi,
dont bother about her,
shes too immature,
and we do not mess with small kids. :D
cos they are annoying. -.-

i think im really going to 3/9
but what to do,
im not that smart. -.-
study, fail.
dont study, also fail.
ok technically staring at a page,
for the whole night is not really studying,
BUT BUT i bothered to stare.

went to cut my fringe,
fuck it, im broke again.
tomorrow go home bury myself lah.
report book coming,
might as well be prepared.

anyway R3 day today,
went to fragrant wood, 517-521
stupid, 2 groups 1 block,
finished at 9.
anyway me nithya and akib make a gooood team. :D
multi racial lahh. LOL.
anyway just to eat lunch was so difficult -.-
because anna was telling me to stay put,
and walk different directions,
while kimberly on the other hand,
was asking me to go straight to causeway.
so, i looked like a stupid idiot,
going round the traffic junction outside cwp.
and then go up the path, go back,
stayed put,
walk back again,
both ppl telling me who to listen to.
i could have gotten there in 3 minutes,
i took 20. _l_

arguing with kimberly now,
buh-bye.

2009-10-28T16:54:00.002+08:00

WTF LAH.
bitchhhh _l_
you think you mgs girl very big huh?
knock out my sis's two front teeth.
still say forget somemore.
you think very funny ah?
you want?
i go to your school take hockey stick,
whack all your teeth out,
next day teacher ask me,
i tell her i dun remember doing it.
still deny!
got 30 witnesses leh.
you think you very big ah,
you think your parents will save you,
you know my name so what?
i clarinda sister very big right,
the whole sec 4 know me,
i know i very famous thankyou very much.

if i see you,
you better watch out.
you probably go home without any teeth left.
i dont care,
even if you need to get a mouth transplant.
it probably make you look better anyway.

i know you will come my blog,
because when you come,
you can read all my insults to you,
and to be honest,
you deserve much much more.
i small size,
i can still take stick whack okay.
stuckup bitch. -.-
you watch out.