Just got back from 5 hours of studiowu.

I just realized something.
I happened to be reading two people's blogs on the way home.
And i realized, forever isn't impossible.
It's just me who is impossible.
I always spoil everything.
And its always my fault.
I'm not saying people always blame me for doing the wrong things.
But I literally always do the wrong things.
When i talk, i always say something wrong.
When i do stuff, for some reason i get an unexpected reaction from the other party.
I know no one is perfect, but I'm not even normal.
How can someone make so many mistakes and hurt so many people.

And my dad taught me a life lesson.
In life, no one will ever stay with you till the end.
They will leave you somehow sooner or later.
I chose not to believe that.
But now realizing this fact that i have just mentioned about myself, its so true.
For me at least.
No one will ever stay with me. Even my friends.
Because basically no one would want to.

Sorry doesn't mean anything to me anymore.
If you didn't mean all those things you said to me then why did you say it in the first place..
I guess I deserve all this.
Just a flash of the picture and I can totally lose my concentration.
I fell on my head in gymnastics, and tendon snapped today.
I know it's over. But why do i still keep hoping. ):

Clarissa