Alright, I wanna post about yesterday and today before i forget what happened.
And I'm gonna make this quick because I am going to fall asleep anytime. LOL.

So, I shall start with yesterday. Friday.
Went to school as usual, had some speech about our finance minister?
Then had healthy lifestyle, dance.
Went to PE, played captain's ball and monkey, 5 vs 5. Boy vs Girl.
But for some reason in the end it became 5 Girls vs 7 Boys. ._.
Overall PE was awesome.
Had maths, got over maths.
Had recess, Yijun's birthday, bought photos.
And i forgot what happened in POA.
Went for lunch, then went for CIP giving out flyers.
127, 128 with Weiheng and Jason.
All the way to Marsling. Was half dead by the time we just reached there.
Finished up, stuffed the extras into letterboxes, lifts, dustbin, rocks, notice boards.
Charged back to school, earlier then i expected.
Modern dance.
Normal as usual, I skipped ballet. Dammit.
Then left early, shall skip the unhappy part, reached Studio Wu late.
There goes my popping class.
So waited for hip hop instead.
It was awesome, super tiring. LOL.
Compared to this modern dance is nothing. :/
Went back home, ate, slept I think.
K I'm done.

Now Saturday, which is today.
I keep thinking its a Friday today.
Because i went to school in my class tee.
Went usual time, was actually late.
R3 day, was boring.
121, had 4 levels, 2 doors on each level, finished in about 5 minutes.
Did 125 for the other group, finished real fast too.
This building is designed by someone who definitely not use his/her brain.
The structure is seriously stupid and inconvenient.
Finished, kept going into 7/11 because i didn't know what else to do.
The truck took so freaking long to come.
After that, ran to cwp, because boyfriend was waiting for me. :)
Waited there for Kimberly and Anna, but in the end ate first.
LONG JOHN SILVERR. :D
I had an awesome lunch. Not that the chicken is nice.
But because I ate it with Andrei. :D
So that made my day.
Then after he left went to find Anna and Kimberly at Yoshinoya.
Watched them eat, talked about what to do.
We had 3 hours, and it really was a lot.
Movies were out, because we had no money and the timings were all wrong anyway.
Anna wanted to play basketball, and none of us had balls. Literally.
I suggested going to Tampanies, but then no one agreed.
Wanted to take a random bus number, but no money for a cab back.
Nobody wanted to go back to school.
And causeway was seriously boring.
Anna went to cut her hair, Kim looked at her bangles.
In the end went to starbucks at civic.
Kimberly bought her mocha, went to sit on level four.
We looked like we were loitering, and apparently we were.
But there was really nothing for us to do.
Took some funny pictures there, shall upload another time on fb.
Anna has many faces.
We were all so tired and unhappy.
But for some reason thing changed.
Walked back to school for Modern dance, gate was closed.
Saw Jiaqi, Kelicia, Bharat and JiaHong outside.
Not because of those people, but i don't know why.
I started shouting and screaming rubbish, until tears came out of my eyes.
So many things happened and I can't even remember anymore.
Kinda weird.
I scared Jeslyn I think. :/
I hope no one ever sees me like that again.
And apparently Anna and Kimberly weren't any better.
But it's my first time, and it really wasn't normal.
Oh well, I'm glad I'm back to normal now.
Walked into school after Miss Soo came, went to Mr Raja's office.
Did make up and changed, practiced once.
Set off in a mini bus at 6, reach chinatown there at around 7.
Seriously scary place. Full of perverts.
Felt so uncomfortable. D:
And the best thing was the way everything was arranged,
it looked like someone was gonna perform a traditional Chinese opera.
Concert started at 8, we were third in line.
Performance wasn't that good, was too far back.
My mother ans sister came just when our performance ended.
Perfect timing.
Was told the car broke down. Hooray.
School fetched us back, changed, washed face, went home.
Eat, now posting.

I'm not doing it right.
No one has to tell me, I already know.
I need people to tell me things straight in the face.
And the only people who are doing that are my parents.
I want to do it right, and I want to do more.
But i don't even know who should I go to, to ask for help.
I want to give so much more. :(
I'm losing it, and I want to do something about it.
I really don't know how.
I keep doing the opposite.
Fuck the world. For not letting things turn out the way I want to.
It never does.
Even if it takes me my life to do this right, then so be it. :)
It's so worth it.
BUT for some reason deep down inside I know it won't happen.
I can wish, but wishes don't come true.
I will still try all the way till it ends.
I want to make this the best part of my life.

I have so many problems and crisis to deal with.
I wanna write it all down.

Okay I should sleep now.
If you were in heaven, the situations going on in Earth looks like a board game.

Clarissa