dance camp was just simply awesome.
i dont know how else to put it.
i worked so hard on choreo with zoey and bianca,
and overall im proud of myself.

since monday besides dance camp,
nothing good has happened to me.
from scolding to not being welcomed home,
to not getting the choice i want,
to missing the birthday party i promised kim to go to,
to my mother over reacting over my friends,
to my father over reacting over transferring school again,
just because i didnt get into double science.

but i guess combine isnt all that bad.
besides, watching 2012 today with my sis,
totally made my day.
while gazing at prototype original.
and eating lunch out.

so far im controlling myself well,
not arguing and whatsoever.
i dont communicate with my parents unless i have to.
now they think something is wrong with me.
that dance camp didnt go well or something.
not that they care.
i didnt even get a hi when i came back.
in fact,
they seemed quite unhappy to see me.

people are getting on my nerves.
i seem to get very irritated easily.
my mother,
always to scared to admit shes wrong,
my father,
according to himself,
is never wrong.
so ultimately,
i am always wrong.

but its okay,
even i have no proper family,
no freedom,
no money,
no happiness,
and almost no more friends,

at least i still got some left who really cares,
although things never turn out the way i think they do.
but i have a home,
a room, a bed, food.
and no missing limbs.
im the luckiest girl in the world. (:

i hope that one day in my life,
i wake up,
and for once,
everything is perfect.

Clarissa