alot of people is asking where did my links and cbox go,
i just dont want it there.
you may unlink me if you want, its up to you,
but if you dont, youre wonderful. hahaha.

this morning was.. well superior.
my father blasted at me in front of anna.
anyway today's dance was fine i guess.
me and zoey are having a hard time communicating with 2 of the sec 1s.

well i decided,
to change once and for all,
change my choice of friends,
my attitude,
and behavior.
from now on, i shall listen to whatever my parents say.
they say what, i do what.
if im wrong, then im wrong.
i wont argue anymore.
they ask my practice piano, i practice.
they dont ask me, i also practice.
they say dont go out,
then maybe i will stop the begging.

but at the same time,
im gonna stop cracking up.
i will talk only when im supposed to,
not more than that.
i will not tell jokes anymore,
and interact less.
and no chatting.
i want to be serious.
i shall do my last job on conveying two messages. (:

even if i become some goody two shoes,
and people start to think im nerd and dislike me,
i dont really care.
maybe this shows who your real friends are.
im so glad theres a overnight stay tomorrow.
it will give me time to think,
on what to do when i get home.

im gonna get a great lashing from my dad when he gets home.
i will probably agree with everything he says.
he says im immature,
then so be it.
i shall tell myself to learn to be more mature.
i realise those people really werent who i thought they were,

and, normal parents,
wouldnt want their child to suffer,
so ultimately, if i do whatever they say,
i wouldnt suffer.
i usually dont do the things basically because i dont want to.
so now,
maybe it might do me some good.
live my life without regrets.

if my parents die one day,
i dont want to end up telling myself,
"the last thing you did was to make them unhappy"

Clarissa